A friend, A lover, A Mom!!!!!
Sometimes, It takes awhile!!!
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Join Date: Jul 2004
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A friend, A lover, A Mom!!!!!
Good morning everyone,
My name is serenity and I am an alcoholic.....needed to start this way!
Lately when I go to meetings and I hear people share what is was like when they were drinking....I cry...because of the A's in my life....namely, A friend, my ASO, and my two oldest children!
In this past year, 3 people I drank with died from this disease...sad, sad, sad! And as I'm typing this my heart is braking...and the tears are flowing. And I know God's heart yearns for them to be set free.!!!!!!!!!!!! He loves them and knows exactly what they need!
Not sure what I'm typing here...just sad this morning...yet have hope for these people....yet scared for them...All kinds of feelings all at once.
The friend and my ASO are older...but my Children are in there 20's...I pray for them they don't have to hit a low bottom...and not waste all the years I did. Hopefully they won't because they see my sobriety. DENIAL..I hate that word.................ok, here comes the anger....lol All these emotions all at once....ok, this is tuff, not sure what I trying to say...just trying to vent.....here's a poem I wrote....
Live and Let Live
Is what I'm learning to do
What a freedom it is
Letting go of trying to fix you
No more controlling
No more unease of mind
Releasing you to God
Then serenity is what I find
I tried to play God
For so many years
But all I would find
Was frustration and tears
My life is more peaceful
When I give you to God above
So don't think I don't want you
I'm just wanting all of your love
My wish for you is
The best life has to give
I'm right here for you, sweety
When your ready to live!!!
Signed,
a friend, a lover, a mom
My name is serenity and I am an alcoholic.....needed to start this way!
Lately when I go to meetings and I hear people share what is was like when they were drinking....I cry...because of the A's in my life....namely, A friend, my ASO, and my two oldest children!
In this past year, 3 people I drank with died from this disease...sad, sad, sad! And as I'm typing this my heart is braking...and the tears are flowing. And I know God's heart yearns for them to be set free.!!!!!!!!!!!! He loves them and knows exactly what they need!
Not sure what I'm typing here...just sad this morning...yet have hope for these people....yet scared for them...All kinds of feelings all at once.
The friend and my ASO are older...but my Children are in there 20's...I pray for them they don't have to hit a low bottom...and not waste all the years I did. Hopefully they won't because they see my sobriety. DENIAL..I hate that word.................ok, here comes the anger....lol All these emotions all at once....ok, this is tuff, not sure what I trying to say...just trying to vent.....here's a poem I wrote....
Live and Let Live
Is what I'm learning to do
What a freedom it is
Letting go of trying to fix you
No more controlling
No more unease of mind
Releasing you to God
Then serenity is what I find
I tried to play God
For so many years
But all I would find
Was frustration and tears
My life is more peaceful
When I give you to God above
So don't think I don't want you
I'm just wanting all of your love
My wish for you is
The best life has to give
I'm right here for you, sweety
When your ready to live!!!
Signed,
a friend, a lover, a mom
Don't get undies in a bunch
Join Date: Apr 2004
Location: South Shore MA
Posts: 7,120
Right on target and so beautiful a poem
Thank you for that share
God will take the hurt as well... if we let Him.
Well maybe not take the hurt but I have found He covers it with that special peace that transends all understanding.
Thank you for that share
God will take the hurt as well... if we let Him.
Well maybe not take the hurt but I have found He covers it with that special peace that transends all understanding.
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