ashamed2day

I dreamed last night of my AH and times when he would abandon me and run away. Years and Years of emotional abuse. So much abuse I am really ashamed of myself.

I haven't had dreams of him in so long. I know it has to do with him since I reconnected with him due to my car issue.

I am shaking this morning. Feeling very overwhelmed.

I resolved to discontinue any type of contact with him and giving myself a 6 month to a year to a better mental state and financial situation. I will worry about divorce later.

I will need help and sometimes someone to hold my virtual hand but I know it can be done. It has too.

smc92va

You can do it- God probably sent you the dream to remind you how far you have come and what you don't want to go back to. Hugs, love, and good vibes to you.

KidsR#1

yes, you can do it. Funny how our subconscious works through dreams. It reminded you of a time you don't want to go back to. Hugs!!

ashamed2day

Thank you everyone. This is very hard to go through alone and not have family that understands.

smc92va

I know how you feel - I don't talk to my family or friends about any of it either. That's why I am so thankful that I found SR and my Nar-Anon group. Don't think I could get through it all without them.

bringiton

I agree with smc92va that maybe God made sure you remembered the torture. Sometimes memories do not reflect the true reality of what happened but those feelings, you remember those forever.

Sending you lots of hugs!!!!!

neferkamichael

Ashamed2day, rootin for ya.