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So all in all not a horrible night. I woke up early this morning as it is the only time that the house is all my and quiet since everyone has left or is still asleep. It must be nice to live in that kind of serenity. I could hear the birds waking up outside and the clock ticking away. Thats all i want, calm. I want to laugh and be happy, free from worrying about whats going to happen next and their judgemental views on my decisions. I want to make decisions without wondering what he will think.