Steroids?
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I'll pray for you.
Hugs to you. It is not easy for anyone here whether or choice is to stay together or separate. If it was we wouldn't be here.
I used to have this as my signature quote.
Anaïs Nin: “And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom”
It is all about how you want to live your life, what kinds of people and behavior you want in your life, what you need from a partner. When you figure that out then the tricky part is figuring out how to walk towards it.
I used to have this as my signature quote.
Anaïs Nin: “And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom”
It is all about how you want to live your life, what kinds of people and behavior you want in your life, what you need from a partner. When you figure that out then the tricky part is figuring out how to walk towards it.
He does not seem to care much about his health so he can't care about yours. You care about him. Who cares about ksumm77 and her wellbeing, in this picture?? who is looking after her?
Yes, he was seeing a counselor individually, but I don't think he's going on a regular basis... which doesn't help. He does have issues with how he views his body. Growing up his dad was physically and verbally abusive and would call him fat; so he still has a lot of healing that he has not been able to do yet.
Regardless of the hell a person has lived it does not give him or her the right to behave in a violent manner towards another adult. Unless that someone else is a masochist, or for some reason (conscious or unconscious) chooses to be a willing participant. I am of the idea that being an active addict while in a relationship with someone is a way of exercising violence, because its not only you in an isolated island, you are affecting others, harming their hearts and creating wounds that take years or decades to heal. And often, laughing about it, and dismissing it completely. (At least that is my experience).
To know the road ahead, ask those coming back. (Chinese Proverb)
PS Sorry if I sounded blunt or hostile, my post is meant with respect and concern for you. Therapy was my main source of support when I was confused about staying with an emotionally and verbally abusive man. When I was in the middle of it all I was not able to see reality clearly. That is the gift of therapy: clarity. Actions or non-actions (and their consequences) are all up to you. But after some sessions you are no longer in a place of confusion, you know the other person, you know you, you know what you want, you know what you are receiving. You are no longer blindfolded. You are no longer surprised. You no longer take decisions by holding to a fantasy and illusions.
No one can tell you what to do, but I think what people are trying to get you to see is that there is a door to the cell you are in right now... And you have the key to that door. You may not have the desire or strength to use the door... But it's there. You have options. You do not have to stay and suffer, and play the victim.
You are a lovable person worthy of being treated with respect. While you are capable of loving and caring for your husband ... You deserve a partner who is capable of giving back to you as much, or more, of what you give out.
You don't have to make any decisions on your marriage today. But I would suggest you make a decision on your relationship with yourself. Start loving yourself more today. Put time into your recovery.... And in time, the other answers will come to you, whatever they may be.
You are a lovable person worthy of being treated with respect. While you are capable of loving and caring for your husband ... You deserve a partner who is capable of giving back to you as much, or more, of what you give out.
You don't have to make any decisions on your marriage today. But I would suggest you make a decision on your relationship with yourself. Start loving yourself more today. Put time into your recovery.... And in time, the other answers will come to you, whatever they may be.
Hugs to you. I knew only one thing when I allowed myself to accept that my husband was an alcoholic: That I would never divorce him. That, to me, was the only given. We would work through this together. If he didn't want to, didn't think there was a problem, God and I would work through it. Because I did not believe in divorce.
It's a laudable position. Just make sure you're holding on for the right reasons. I found that I wasn't really holding on because I loved him and was convinced it was the right thing to do -- I was holding on because I wanted to show the world how much better and stronger I was than other women who just left their spouses willy-nilly. And that superiorness, along with the fact that I had three children, was the only thing standing between me and suicide many nights.
But that was me and you aren't me. I just wanted to tell you that what it all comes down to is that you are responsible for your life. And that's all. Not anybody else's. Unless you have children. In which case you need to consider what's best for them.
It's a laudable position. Just make sure you're holding on for the right reasons. I found that I wasn't really holding on because I loved him and was convinced it was the right thing to do -- I was holding on because I wanted to show the world how much better and stronger I was than other women who just left their spouses willy-nilly. And that superiorness, along with the fact that I had three children, was the only thing standing between me and suicide many nights.
But that was me and you aren't me. I just wanted to tell you that what it all comes down to is that you are responsible for your life. And that's all. Not anybody else's. Unless you have children. In which case you need to consider what's best for them.
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selfish too
One of the side effects of steroids is that they can raise blood pressure which in turn causes other problems like not being able to cool the body. The steroid users I know always need air conditioning even when it's not hot out. While most others aren't even running a fan they're cranking an AC and fan because they 'feel hot'. Well between the steroids and alcohol yes that will raise body temp.
So while you are saving money along with being quite comfortable the juicer will rack up an electric bill that they probably will not wind up not paying. They'll be making noise(the running ac unit) and quite possibly make you cold/uncomfortable. Point being that this will be just one of the 'quirks' that you will have to tolerate if you stay with a steroid user.
They'll wind up focusing on their physical state alright-at your expense.
So while you are saving money along with being quite comfortable the juicer will rack up an electric bill that they probably will not wind up not paying. They'll be making noise(the running ac unit) and quite possibly make you cold/uncomfortable. Point being that this will be just one of the 'quirks' that you will have to tolerate if you stay with a steroid user.
They'll wind up focusing on their physical state alright-at your expense.
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