Still Raw and Hurting
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Still Raw and Hurting
Returned home a little while ago, and looking at a hot shower and bed as soon as I can. Have only been in my own home for 15 days out of the past 3 months and oh, how I need my own bed again.
To those of you who knew my story, met my my mum and sent support in this rotten time, thank you all.
Mum died quietly in my arms, 2 weeks ago. Her funeral was big, and showed what love so many felt for this wonderful woman. OK so she missed out on the Hoopla of her 100th later this year, big deal. From where I think she is right now, she is not missing out on anything, anywhere or anytime.
I still can't believe she is not here, that I won't be hearing her voice when I phone her as I have done twice daily for so long.
Spending those weeks with her in hospital, and especially the last hours was a gift, grace and privilege that I will treasure all the rest of my life.
But oh Dear Lord, how I miss her so much.
I will come back later, when I hope I can cope a bit better online.
To those of you who knew my story, met my my mum and sent support in this rotten time, thank you all.
Mum died quietly in my arms, 2 weeks ago. Her funeral was big, and showed what love so many felt for this wonderful woman. OK so she missed out on the Hoopla of her 100th later this year, big deal. From where I think she is right now, she is not missing out on anything, anywhere or anytime.
I still can't believe she is not here, that I won't be hearing her voice when I phone her as I have done twice daily for so long.
Spending those weeks with her in hospital, and especially the last hours was a gift, grace and privilege that I will treasure all the rest of my life.
But oh Dear Lord, how I miss her so much.
I will come back later, when I hope I can cope a bit better online.
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Sweetie,
I too have missed your charm, wit, and tenderness.
This intense loss is universal; I still listen to my own mother speak of her mom these years later.
The pain lessens, as you know. Seek solace where you can.
-Christine
I too have missed your charm, wit, and tenderness.
This intense loss is universal; I still listen to my own mother speak of her mom these years later.
The pain lessens, as you know. Seek solace where you can.
-Christine
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Jadmack,
I am so very sorry for your loss....
I believe there is no greater gift than to be with a loved one when they pass. I was able to hold my Dad's hand when he took his last breath.
Your Mom will live in your heart forever.
I am so very sorry for your loss....
I believe there is no greater gift than to be with a loved one when they pass. I was able to hold my Dad's hand when he took his last breath.
Your Mom will live in your heart forever.
Hang in there
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Jadmack,
You've been missed! And you have been in my prayers.
My area in Alabama, USA is recovering from horrific tornadoes this past week. Please keep us in your prayers also.
I knew where you were because of your post before you left. Coyote has been MIA (missing in action) for a while so let's keep him in our thoughts and prayers also.
I look forward to your wit and wisdom again on this forum.
You've been missed! And you have been in my prayers.
My area in Alabama, USA is recovering from horrific tornadoes this past week. Please keep us in your prayers also.
I knew where you were because of your post before you left. Coyote has been MIA (missing in action) for a while so let's keep him in our thoughts and prayers also.
I look forward to your wit and wisdom again on this forum.
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(((Jadmack))) - I'm so sorry for your loss, but darn, I'm glad to see you back.
I know when my mom died, even though I "knew" it, it was about 6 months before it actually hit me. I was telling someone about my mom dying and thought "OMG, she's really gone!!" Did the reaching for the phone to call her, for quite a while, and went through the stages of grief like a rollercoaster...several feelings bouncing around.
Give yourself time to grieve the wonderful woman your mom was. Please know, that you've BEEN in our hearts and prayers, and continue to be.
Love, hugs, and prayers,
Amy
I know when my mom died, even though I "knew" it, it was about 6 months before it actually hit me. I was telling someone about my mom dying and thought "OMG, she's really gone!!" Did the reaching for the phone to call her, for quite a while, and went through the stages of grief like a rollercoaster...several feelings bouncing around.
Give yourself time to grieve the wonderful woman your mom was. Please know, that you've BEEN in our hearts and prayers, and continue to be.
Love, hugs, and prayers,
Amy
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Jadmack please accept my sincere condolences. My grandad passed away two weeks ago. It made me realize how fragile we are in reality. I have wondered often about you and sent you my thoughts. You are wonderful and your mom is now watching over you.
When my mom said goodbye to my grandmom in the hospital she had a vision of my grandmom taking the hand of my grandad (who had already parted 34 years earlier). They were dancing and floating in the light, and my Mom knew she was in the hands of HP. This gave her great solace. Nothing is ever lost, especially not feelings, like the huge love between Mom & Daughter.
Sending hugs & prayers across the Pacific.
When my mom said goodbye to my grandmom in the hospital she had a vision of my grandmom taking the hand of my grandad (who had already parted 34 years earlier). They were dancing and floating in the light, and my Mom knew she was in the hands of HP. This gave her great solace. Nothing is ever lost, especially not feelings, like the huge love between Mom & Daughter.
Sending hugs & prayers across the Pacific.
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