Max Manifesto Cant Think Of Anything Else To Call It
Soberus Maxus
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Max Manifesto Cant Think Of Anything Else To Call It
I'm so happy 'cause today
I found my friends
They're in my head
I'm so ugly, that's okay, 'cause so are you
We broke our mirrors
Sunday morning is everyday for all I care
And I'm not scared
Light my candles, in a daze
'Cause I've found god
I'm so lonely, that's ok I shaved my head
And I'm not sad
And just maybe I'm to blame for all I've heard
I'n not sure
I'm so excited, I can't wait to meet you there
And I dont care
I'm so horny,that's ok
My will is good
Curt Cobain
For the longest time my life went on like this I hated myself.
I had the most elaborate suicide plans and they gave me comfort.
My main plan was to drink or drug myself into submission or kill enough brain cells to not care. All the while I was/am driven to succeed kindoff a confusing contradiction. Driven to pay back the pain. Driven to hurt the pain that hurts me. When I got to the point where enough brain cells had been killed I started to worry. Luckily it seems to coincide with age.
Today is my 46th birthday. When I got to the point were I was ready to give in and I started saying. "I dont care if I drink myself to OBLIVIA". I decided to change. For so long life had been a race to see how fast I could take the corner. Sometimes I spun out. Sometimes when I spun out I was very lucky I didnt hurt anyone else. I gave credit to God for my good fortune and he began to recognize my appreciation.
Now I have a new teamate God. He wants me to live, he wants me to see my grandchildren. He wants me to take care of myself and others so they dont spin out or hurt anyone either.
Today I am thankfull from the bottom of my Maximus heart that the little voice went off.
Today I am thankfull to have found a place like this where I can fulfill my new plan.
I'll let you know as I grow what that is!!!!
Max
I found my friends
They're in my head
I'm so ugly, that's okay, 'cause so are you
We broke our mirrors
Sunday morning is everyday for all I care
And I'm not scared
Light my candles, in a daze
'Cause I've found god
I'm so lonely, that's ok I shaved my head
And I'm not sad
And just maybe I'm to blame for all I've heard
I'n not sure
I'm so excited, I can't wait to meet you there
And I dont care
I'm so horny,that's ok
My will is good
Curt Cobain
For the longest time my life went on like this I hated myself.
I had the most elaborate suicide plans and they gave me comfort.
My main plan was to drink or drug myself into submission or kill enough brain cells to not care. All the while I was/am driven to succeed kindoff a confusing contradiction. Driven to pay back the pain. Driven to hurt the pain that hurts me. When I got to the point where enough brain cells had been killed I started to worry. Luckily it seems to coincide with age.
Today is my 46th birthday. When I got to the point were I was ready to give in and I started saying. "I dont care if I drink myself to OBLIVIA". I decided to change. For so long life had been a race to see how fast I could take the corner. Sometimes I spun out. Sometimes when I spun out I was very lucky I didnt hurt anyone else. I gave credit to God for my good fortune and he began to recognize my appreciation.
Now I have a new teamate God. He wants me to live, he wants me to see my grandchildren. He wants me to take care of myself and others so they dont spin out or hurt anyone either.
Today I am thankfull from the bottom of my Maximus heart that the little voice went off.
Today I am thankfull to have found a place like this where I can fulfill my new plan.
I'll let you know as I grow what that is!!!!
Max
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Oh, Max! I was holding my breath as I read....I'm so glad that this was a retrospective and that you are here, Sober Maximus, among the truly living.
I've got a bit of codie in me, Max, so please... post a disclaimer before you give ol' Sug a heart attack!
Peace & Love,
Sugah
I've got a bit of codie in me, Max, so please... post a disclaimer before you give ol' Sug a heart attack!
Peace & Love,
Sugah
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAXIMUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bestest wishes my dear friend !
I too am glad that your post was RETROSPECTIVE, I nearly dropped my false teeth when I started reading
HUGX to YOU
Lee
Bestest wishes my dear friend !
I too am glad that your post was RETROSPECTIVE, I nearly dropped my false teeth when I started reading
HUGX to YOU
Lee
Soberus Maxus
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Sooo sorry about the Retrospective.
I was just driving back from a camping trip with the wifelet. We drove 3 hours just to go sit and watch Idol. Anyways driving back I listened to Lithium the Nirvana song and It took me back a bit to a few years back. Life was so unimportant. It was like it will just be over in so many years so what does it matter. Ive taught myself to appreciate it now. Its so wonderfull. The stars I had my eyes as a child are reappearing with an ever so slight twinkle. ****That kinda tickled me... LOL
Thanks guys..
Pick Pickler. American Idol. Shes a Mink!!
Max
I was just driving back from a camping trip with the wifelet. We drove 3 hours just to go sit and watch Idol. Anyways driving back I listened to Lithium the Nirvana song and It took me back a bit to a few years back. Life was so unimportant. It was like it will just be over in so many years so what does it matter. Ive taught myself to appreciate it now. Its so wonderfull. The stars I had my eyes as a child are reappearing with an ever so slight twinkle. ****That kinda tickled me... LOL
Thanks guys..
Pick Pickler. American Idol. Shes a Mink!!
Max
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Happipity Birthday to you!!!!What a great way to start your 46th year: with a love of life!!!
I'm so glad you did not author that sad sorry song!!! But I do understand...it coulda been you back in the day....
I wish you MANY happy returns on today!!!!!!!!!
I'm so glad you did not author that sad sorry song!!! But I do understand...it coulda been you back in the day....
I wish you MANY happy returns on today!!!!!!!!!
Soberus Maxus
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Thanks for the happy birthday all. I covered up alot for a long time. Today was a good day to let a part of it out. Everything was ok, for a long time when it wasnt.
Out with the bad, in with the good.
Max
Out with the bad, in with the good.
Max
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Max! 
My sig (on another forum) is 'With the lights out, it's less dangerous'
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO A GREAT BLOKEY!
mine is in 2 weeks and I'll hit the grand old age of 36!
I wrote you a lovely card and then my pc crashed so I'll try again after work tonight. Got a new job and better get the bunny into the kitchen and my bum out this door! bunny wabbit is in the kitchen during the day and if she wants all her treats and toys then mummy better get her bum out the door and onto the tram to earn the money what buys da carrots!
Happy Birthday Max! from Molly the human and Jemima the small black rabbit!
XXX
My sig (on another forum) is 'With the lights out, it's less dangerous'HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO A GREAT BLOKEY!
mine is in 2 weeks and I'll hit the grand old age of 36!
I wrote you a lovely card and then my pc crashed so I'll try again after work tonight. Got a new job and better get the bunny into the kitchen and my bum out this door! bunny wabbit is in the kitchen during the day and if she wants all her treats and toys then mummy better get her bum out the door and onto the tram to earn the money what buys da carrots!
Happy Birthday Max! from Molly the human and Jemima the small black rabbit!
XXX
Soberus Maxus
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Yes we are on this trip together and it is so great. The price is right.
Has anyone ever went to counseling and found the counselor was just there for the dollar signs?
Ok REM Shiny happy people holding hands in the shower for me this morning. Never good to listen to nirvana in the shower. lol
Spacegirl I Love your bunny. I had a grand champion wabbit at the county fair.
Her name was Sunset. She was a red satin.
Its not better to burn out than fade away.
Retros fire toward a new day.
Love Max
Has anyone ever went to counseling and found the counselor was just there for the dollar signs?
Ok REM Shiny happy people holding hands in the shower for me this morning. Never good to listen to nirvana in the shower. lol
Spacegirl I Love your bunny. I had a grand champion wabbit at the county fair.
Her name was Sunset. She was a red satin.
Its not better to burn out than fade away.
Retros fire toward a new day.
Love Max
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