Change4life

I am an alcoholic
Who has lost all control
I am also a drug addict
with a broken soul

So many changes
I need to make
where do I start
What will it take

Ive been arrested
Ive been to jail
I try to succeed
But the drugs make me fail

Will I ever step out of the darkness
And into the light
Will I ever be totally sober
Just for one night

I've lost so many friends
My boyfriend, my job
How much more of my life
Will the drugs and alcohol rob

At night when I close my eyes
Sometimess I pray
I pray when I wake up
It will be a new day

Free from the prison
I find myself in
Free to start over
To let sobriety begin

Trying to,
Bfree

wantneeda

((((bfree4u)))))
all we have is one day at a time
sending you all the positive thoughts and prayers i got
hugs, Wendy

Change4life

Thanks Wendy. I can't even think of things in term of one day at a time. At this point I have to take one minute at a time. I have to make some drastic changes if I will ever get better, but it has been extremely difficult. People and places, are a real problem, especially people. Everyone knows I am trying to quit, and now they are trying to drag me down more than ever. I know what I have to do but it is hard. I don't have much will power against drugs and alcohol right now. I know things have to get better.
Hugs,
Beth

shockozulu

There are times I can easily go one day at a time. Then other times I have to go one second at a time. Its the nature of addiction I think

Luckyv2

(((((Bfree4u)))))

I just want you to know that no matter what people here do care and I for one do care....Some have it and some don't,,,,you do so do it....

Love Vic

angelgirl

Beth,,

Great poem,,

I am also a drug addict
Oh, but you are so much more than just a drug addict..

At night when I close my eyes
Sometimess I pray
Pray everynight, maybe it will make a difference?? Definately worth a try..

with a broken soul
Fix it, pray hun...

where do I start
you start by, just not taking that first one today...

What will it take
It will take complete willingness, surrender, and strength, as well as HP (if you believe)

Ive been arrested
Ive been to jail
Just know, you don't have to go there, anymore...

Will I ever be totally sober
Just for one night
You can step out of the darkness, and into the light, and be forever sober, not just for one night..

I've lost so many friends
My boyfriend, my job
Me to, but you can get it all back, and then some...

How much more of my life
Will the drugs and alcohol rob
As much as you allow them to....

I pray when I wake up
It will be a new day
Yes Beth, that's the idea, you are getting there you know

Free from the prison
I find myself in
So easy, and yet so very, very hard..... But.... I have the faith, you CAN do it Beth..

Free to start over
To let sobriety begin

Yes Beth, once again, you have it, see how you have caught on, you want it, I know you do, and really wanting it, is half the battle, or more...

Wonderful poem, especially when you add all the positives to it..
You are such a wonderful person. You keep coming bak, that is why I know you will do this, you want it..!!

Thinkin and prayin for you,,
Lots of love,,
Becky

BLUESMAN52

Beth,
Your poem is awesome, and it is your start. You asked where you can start, well you just did.
Your will to quit needs to grow stronger. Stronger than the people that are trying to drag you down, because it is you and only you that can take that drink or drug. It is only you that can say no.
I had to get away from everyone I knew. It was a last resort, but I had to get into a rehab. I even moved. Is that not a possibility for you?
Prayers and hugs to you.

pistol

Beth's poem is awesome; it has been a long time since i logged in and even longer since i posted anything; thanks for being there with the inspiration i need

luluabel

(((((Beth)))) what a brilliant poem Beth so heartfelt ..............I too take one day at a time Beth ........sometimes I have given in but I never give up niether should you we are worth this fight ............love Lulu xxxxxxxx

Change4life

I love you all! Hi Becky it is good to be back. Great response thank you so much. I am trying to do the right thing and stay away from all the negative people in my life. they call themselves my friend, but in actuality, they are killing me. ( they were killing me). If they want to kill themselves they can do it alone, they don't need me to go along with them. it is beautiful outside, and I want to enjoy as many days like this as I can.
Love to all,
Beth

Luckyv2

Yes it is and we will enjoy it today, just right now for this moment....

Love Vic

kottonkat

I am in tears sweetie...a powerful poem.
Please, don't give up.
Your inner beauty shines through your painful addictions,
hugs,
kottonkat

Change4life

No giving up here, I may have a few set backs here and there, well maybe more than a few, but I will not give up.
Hugs to all,
Beth