hopealwayz

It is just so hard and I don't understand. I don't know how I can be so confused within myself and reach inside to find so much fear.
I am just scared; of life and of what is ahead.
Right now, I just feel so empty. I know that there is more to me but I am trying to overcome this feeling of sinking. Kind of scary for me.

In memory of miracle

Hang in there. You are doing so well. Believe it or not, you are right where you are supposto be at this moment. Those feelings will pass and make way for happier ones. Bless, Trish

hopealwayz

(((Trish)))

Time2Surrender

I been there too.I have learned the longer I stay clean and sober,The better I feel.I know God has a plan for me.He has one for you too.Its only a matter of turning things over to him. Hang in there.This will pass.

wingsfreed

Yep hang in there ((((((Cheryl)))))) you're doing fantastic kiddo.....you're not alone with this either, I'm going through some real funny stuff too...so I decided to just laugh a lot more, it sure beats the alternative.

hopealwayz

I know this sounds silly but I feel guilty today about eating so much. I'm trying to lose weight and with this holiday, I overindulged. My mom told me that it was a holiday and to not be so hard on myself, but I just keep feeling guilty.

I guess healthy eating is just as it is with staying sober. It is a one day at a time thing and it is all or nothing. It has its good days and bad days but no matter what, we keep on moving along.

Just keep tryin' til I get it.

pearl

(((((Cheryl))))) Yes my dear you are doing it right. Hang in there.

Love and strength
Pearl

hopealwayz

Sorry for the whining but I just feel like using tonight. It is a bad night for me and these thoughts keep flying around in my mind.
At what point is the obsession lifted?

I've heard that it goes away from working the steps? I don't understand that psyche change that I've heard so much about. It sounds like a working miracle in someone's life.

Dream2bClean

Hi,

I am there with you I have been feeling the same way all day. Hust got back from a meeting and it helped me to feel much better, at least for now.

want
(christine)

lulu70

That's pretty much how it was for me. Being sober and feeling happy (most of the time) is absolutely a miracle.

Be patient with yourself, hon'. It will get better--it just takes time.

Hugs--

Midas

The obsession stops when you stop thinkin' about it so much. Go figure.
It takes time. You'll know when you get there. Sometime quickly, sometimes slowly...

CAPTAINZING2000

Turn it over Have faith in your higher power. I do belive that's the key to serenity


hugs

chris

hopealwayz

We did have a grill to cook on for the 4th because my uncle got high and tore it up. And I'm sad that I missed all of the fireworks. I wanted to see some really pretty bright colors so much.

but I made it to 21 days today!! So happy!

hopealwayz

Does expectation = resentment?

wingsfreed

Anna

Hi Angel,

I'm sorry that you're going through a tough time, but as all have said you just need to hang on. There are going to be ups and downs all through your sobriety and early on in sobriety is a difficult time emotionally. There's a lot to deal with. "Do expectations = resentment?" I think expectations often lead us to a disappointing place. This is something I've learned and am still working on. It's hard to not have expectations in your life. It's hard to accept people and things as they come along. But, it's something I'm striving for.

Love, Anna

hopealwayz

Thanks for sharing those fireworks denise and thanks to everyone who posted here and shares insight with me. This is a rough journey but we can all do it together, right?

wingsfreed

You're welcome Cheryl......yes it's a tough journey, but also we make it harder then needs to be, there is a solutiion....and yessssss you bet we're all in this together.....more strength in numbers.

Today I know I don't ever want to go back to that insanity, you don't have to either.
I've let my resentments go Cheryl, they serve no purpose at all, only drag us down.

I've got a lot to be grateful for..I bet you do too....look for the positive.

Please take care of yourself, love ya....Denise

hopealwayz

I am grateful for today. I have 3 weeks clean and sober today. I'm an addict/alcoholic and my clean date is June 14, 2005. I am starting to feel better but even better than that is knowing that it will get even better than this.

Gives me so much to look forward to and be grateful.

I was thinking of starting a thread to keep track of my recovery to have something to look back on--but I could use this one. Don't know yet, but I know I have a long way to go.

hopealwayz

Miracles take shape and form in so many different ways during the day. We have miracles all around us.
We are miracles and so is our life.