I went ahead with the termination....
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I went ahead with the termination....
Hi guys
I went ahead and had the termination yesterday. They did a scan and it was 10 weeks. I cried all the way through..... I was totally alone. You know my friends sent me text messages of support but where was he?? Where was his support?? Nowhere.
I went alone to the clinic, went for the scan alone, went to into theatre alone, came around alone and came home - alone. I know my HP was with me but Im just so sad and feel so empy. My friends called last night to see I was OK. One girlfrind took the day off work and came and sat with me today. YOu know he had the nerve to send me an email saying "How are you?? Did you go to work today?? Hope your day was good" Well no it bloody wasnt!! (sorry for the poor language) What planet does he live on!!!!!!!
I just couldnt have the child with no support from him nor my family.
I think I did the right thing. I pray I did. I pray things will be OK and I pray for a new life away from him and this horrid disease and to find peace.
I dont know how to feel. I am so numb, hurt, in pain physically and mentally but my life has to go on. I have to see this as a new beginning and try and detach from him. I pray for the strengh to do this and continue with the detachment.
Thank you all so much for you support during this time. As you know it has been an agonizing decision over the last few weeks.
Katie
I went ahead and had the termination yesterday. They did a scan and it was 10 weeks. I cried all the way through..... I was totally alone. You know my friends sent me text messages of support but where was he?? Where was his support?? Nowhere.
I went alone to the clinic, went for the scan alone, went to into theatre alone, came around alone and came home - alone. I know my HP was with me but Im just so sad and feel so empy. My friends called last night to see I was OK. One girlfrind took the day off work and came and sat with me today. YOu know he had the nerve to send me an email saying "How are you?? Did you go to work today?? Hope your day was good" Well no it bloody wasnt!! (sorry for the poor language) What planet does he live on!!!!!!!
I just couldnt have the child with no support from him nor my family.
I think I did the right thing. I pray I did. I pray things will be OK and I pray for a new life away from him and this horrid disease and to find peace.
I dont know how to feel. I am so numb, hurt, in pain physically and mentally but my life has to go on. I have to see this as a new beginning and try and detach from him. I pray for the strengh to do this and continue with the detachment.
Thank you all so much for you support during this time. As you know it has been an agonizing decision over the last few weeks.
Katie
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(((katie))) - i am sorry you had to go thru this alone but glad you had a friend with you today. if you feel the need, follow up with some counseling. i wish you peace a serenity.
many big hugs - chris
many big hugs - chris
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Dear Sweet Katie,
I pray you can get through this with your good health. A lot of support, love and hugs are sent your way. From me and lots of others from SR. Take care of yourself. Get some rest and try not to stress. I know, it's easy to say, but try and focus on recovering your health.
Love and Blessings
Kathy
I pray you can get through this with your good health. A lot of support, love and hugs are sent your way. From me and lots of others from SR. Take care of yourself. Get some rest and try not to stress. I know, it's easy to say, but try and focus on recovering your health.
Love and Blessings
Kathy
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Aw Katie...I am so very sorry that you had to come to this decision. I know...I've been there. I know that right now you are questioning everything ... but know in your heart girl....you did what you felt was right. And so it WAS right.
I know that now, you are going to have to mourn the loss of this child...as well as the loss of your relationship with his/her father. It's a lot to take on. Again...you are not alone.
Do not close yourself up darlin...talk to us..yell and scream and cry with us. We will all be here for you.
I know that now, you are going to have to mourn the loss of this child...as well as the loss of your relationship with his/her father. It's a lot to take on. Again...you are not alone.
Do not close yourself up darlin...talk to us..yell and scream and cry with us. We will all be here for you.
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Dear Katie,
Ditto to what LovingMom said. Mourning your loss. Give yourself time to grieve and feel the loss. I didn't mourn my loss for 20 years. When it hit, it just about threw me over the edge. All that had accumulated throughout my life, including the loss and my husband's alcoholism hit me all at once. And I had no one to talk to. No one. You've got us. You're never alone here. Remember that.
Take the time to heal your body, mind and spirit. And forgive yourself.
((((((((((((((Katie)))))))))))))))
Ditto to what LovingMom said. Mourning your loss. Give yourself time to grieve and feel the loss. I didn't mourn my loss for 20 years. When it hit, it just about threw me over the edge. All that had accumulated throughout my life, including the loss and my husband's alcoholism hit me all at once. And I had no one to talk to. No one. You've got us. You're never alone here. Remember that.
Take the time to heal your body, mind and spirit. And forgive yourself.
((((((((((((((Katie)))))))))))))))
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Remember God is always with us thru thick and thin, I know this is a difficult time in your life,keep your chin up. You know how miserable this disease of his has made you? think of how it would and could have affected a baby. You made the best decision for yourself and the baby. Trust your self. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
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