I can either keep trying or give up
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I can either keep trying or give up
Today I choose to keep trying and fighting for sobriety. I blew September and October by drinking pretty much every day. I'm not going to focus anymore on the negative, but focus on what I'm doing that is positive in this moment. I'm on SR and posting up. I am committed to not drinking TODAY. I am going to the grocery store in a little bit and I will NOT purchase any alcohol. I will take my son to the park and enjoy this gorgeous fall day and make sure he has a happy trick-or-treating this evening. I will continue reading and educating myself on my addiction and come up with my next course of action. Not going to try and think too far into the future and overcomplicate things this morning. I will leave at that for now and not pick up a drink today. Thank you everyone for being here and taking the time to read my little post.
If you keep relapsing, perhaps additional steps are needed.
Sometimes group meetings help, by adding fellowship and positive reinforcement. Or working a specific type of recovery program that keeps us focused. And of course exercise - I find it essential to control my mood and reduce cravings.
Whatever you do, don't give up and keep posting here!
Just some thoughts - enjoy your wonderful Halloween day!
Sometimes group meetings help, by adding fellowship and positive reinforcement. Or working a specific type of recovery program that keeps us focused. And of course exercise - I find it essential to control my mood and reduce cravings.
Whatever you do, don't give up and keep posting here!
Just some thoughts - enjoy your wonderful Halloween day!
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Join Date: Aug 2021
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If you keep relapsing, perhaps additional steps are needed.
Sometimes group meetings help, by adding fellowship and positive reinforcement. Or working a specific type of recovery program that keeps us focused. And of course exercise - I find it essential to control my mood and reduce cravings.
Whatever you do, don't give up and keep posting here!
Just some thoughts - enjoy your wonderful Halloween day!
Sometimes group meetings help, by adding fellowship and positive reinforcement. Or working a specific type of recovery program that keeps us focused. And of course exercise - I find it essential to control my mood and reduce cravings.
Whatever you do, don't give up and keep posting here!
Just some thoughts - enjoy your wonderful Halloween day!
AC82 - Not a little post - it's a very big deal. I'm so glad you made this decision.
I drank for decades & it was part of my life for so long, I never imagined being without it. Yet it wasn't enhancing my life in any way - just the opposite. It had become toxic & was destroying my spirit. You can get free & never rely on it again. It takes some getting used to in the early days - but you will feel better as the sober days add up.
Congratulations on being sober today!
I drank for decades & it was part of my life for so long, I never imagined being without it. Yet it wasn't enhancing my life in any way - just the opposite. It had become toxic & was destroying my spirit. You can get free & never rely on it again. It takes some getting used to in the early days - but you will feel better as the sober days add up.
Congratulations on being sober today!
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AC, none of us got it right first time. You should treat a relapse with the seriousness it deserves and not drink every day for two months. You missed out on the good times in September and October. Whatever you’ve been doing isn’t working, is it? Is there anything you think you can change? Can you get a hobby or activity that means you won’t be able to drink, for example?
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Just keep doing the next right thing.
I think the reason you don't want to give up is you know that drinking sucks. It probably didn't always suck, it didn't always suck for me. It became a case of diminishing or even negative marginal returns. It stopped working. It became less and less good and more and more bad. Only insane dreams of the way it use to make us feel can trick us into picking up a drink. Any thoughts of people like us picking up a drink are just moments of insanity. These cravings that come, these moments of insanity pass much quicker then a hangover. Not just the hangover but a drink also resets the obsession to drink back to full strength.
I think the reason you don't want to give up is you know that drinking sucks. It probably didn't always suck, it didn't always suck for me. It became a case of diminishing or even negative marginal returns. It stopped working. It became less and less good and more and more bad. Only insane dreams of the way it use to make us feel can trick us into picking up a drink. Any thoughts of people like us picking up a drink are just moments of insanity. These cravings that come, these moments of insanity pass much quicker then a hangover. Not just the hangover but a drink also resets the obsession to drink back to full strength.
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I wish I could maintain that positive sober-minded attitude. Drinking has become such a part of my daily life, I am still picking up as I am saying "I don't even want this". It's insane.
I didn't make it through last night and I was super depressed/angry today. I can't even make it ONE f'ing day! Pathetic.
Just got off work and already have a beer in my hand. I don't even know why I'm bothering to post this. Just feel like I need to be honest.
I didn't make it through last night and I was super depressed/angry today. I can't even make it ONE f'ing day! Pathetic.
Just got off work and already have a beer in my hand. I don't even know why I'm bothering to post this. Just feel like I need to be honest.
You CAN make one day, just believe in yourself and try to keep yourself busy/distracted. When I start to get cravings I stop what I am doing and go do something else whether it is a hobby, cleaning, going for a walk, etc. It has helped me. It has been tough as I was to that point that I was drinking most of the time during my hobbies, cleaning, surfing on the computer so in my mind I associated all those things with drinking. It has been a challenge but seems to be getting easier. Plus the cravings only last about an hour or 2 at a time. I no longer have any alcohol in the house. Keep trying, it is so worth it. I was so darn depressed and getting worse by the day while I was drinking. My attitude since I have stopped has done a 180. You got this AC!!
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