Tempted to Drink
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Tempted to Drink
Tempted to just have one or two. I can't drink any more than that because of the Antabuse.
I don't want to lose my 20 days and start again. Just posting here because I need to talk about it. I have a meeting in two hours but I might not be able to make it because my psychiatrist is due to call me at some point in the next two hours and if he's slightly late I won't be able to go to the meeting.
I don't know why I'm tempted to drink. I guess just to feel the slight buzz of two beers. I really don't want to have to reset my counter.
I don't want to lose my 20 days and start again. Just posting here because I need to talk about it. I have a meeting in two hours but I might not be able to make it because my psychiatrist is due to call me at some point in the next two hours and if he's slightly late I won't be able to go to the meeting.
I don't know why I'm tempted to drink. I guess just to feel the slight buzz of two beers. I really don't want to have to reset my counter.
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Originally Posted by freedomfries 
Tempted to just have one or two. I can't drink any more than that because of the Antabuse.
Better to just not drink.
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use the tools you’ve gathered FF - you can get through this without giving in.
use support, read old threads, eat something, urge surf, play the tape through to the end, remember your dream to be able to go back to Uni...why let all that be put at risk?
if you miss the F2F meeting why not hit a cyber one instead?
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use support, read old threads, eat something, urge surf, play the tape through to the end, remember your dream to be able to go back to Uni...why let all that be put at risk?
if you miss the F2F meeting why not hit a cyber one instead?
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Stay online with us there is an instant type msgner thing here if you need support through this then your at the right place just play the tape of your old days drinking at thier very worst remember how you felt and let that alone guide you to 3 weeks sober tomorrow which sounds like its only 24h away plus with us here your set x
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I wouldn't want to reset my count either, but resetting my count is not my big concern. My concern is locking myself back into the downward spiral of alcoholism. But I don't worry about it too much, because I know that two beers (even with the mistaken idea that I could stop there) just ain't worth the mistaken idea that I would derive any pleasure out of it. Drinking stopped being pleasurable for me years before I quit. My pleasure comes from being sober night after night. I used to go to AA just just to express that pleasure to people who would understand how the pleasure of not being drunk was so much much better than chasing a transient buzz that never measured up to my expectations.
You know what just dawned on me? I may have to think about this some more: "Want a buzz? Just have a drink:" That's the way a normie probably thinks. But for me to feel normal, I had to quit thinking like a normie. I had to accept that my body chemistry is different than a normie because I'm an alcoholic.
You know what just dawned on me? I may have to think about this some more: "Want a buzz? Just have a drink:" That's the way a normie probably thinks. But for me to feel normal, I had to quit thinking like a normie. I had to accept that my body chemistry is different than a normie because I'm an alcoholic.
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Urges to drink were always a signal to me that I needed to do more work on my alcoholism. It's important to find ways to nip it in the bud early, so urges stop coming altogether.
Some ways to work on sobriety, before an urge hits, would be: frequently reading a list of reasons for wanting to stay sober, checking into an online support group throughout the day.....things like that.
And be extra vigilant around "milestones". Urges seem more likely to hit people when they realize they've been sober for 30 days, 90 days, 6 months...Even 4 days can give someone a sense of control if they feel like they just made a big accomplishment. That sense of false control starts leading to urges.
Great job on staying strong😄👍
Some ways to work on sobriety, before an urge hits, would be: frequently reading a list of reasons for wanting to stay sober, checking into an online support group throughout the day.....things like that.
And be extra vigilant around "milestones". Urges seem more likely to hit people when they realize they've been sober for 30 days, 90 days, 6 months...Even 4 days can give someone a sense of control if they feel like they just made a big accomplishment. That sense of false control starts leading to urges.
Great job on staying strong😄👍
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FF sounds like you made it through and awesome! You are a few weeks ahead of me and you have to stay quit because I am following in your footsteps. Thank you for showing me what I need to do if I get the urge to drink.
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glad to hear it all worked out for the sober side for today, freedomfries.
this here:"I guess just to feel the slight buzz of two beers. I really don't want to have to reset my counter." sounds to me like the struggle between two wants: the immediate and the long-term. taking actions to put beans on the side of the scale for sobriety is the way to go. you spoke in another thread of getting a sponsor...how is that going?
this here:"I guess just to feel the slight buzz of two beers. I really don't want to have to reset my counter." sounds to me like the struggle between two wants: the immediate and the long-term. taking actions to put beans on the side of the scale for sobriety is the way to go. you spoke in another thread of getting a sponsor...how is that going?
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