FF's Accountability Thread
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FF's Accountability Thread
So here on day 2
This is my last chance. I'll be homeless if I drink again
I want to go back to college in September. If I get sober now I'll have seventeen weeks and five days starting college. I need those seventeen weeks. I need this last throw of the die to work
So my plan for today is to not drink, get to a smart meeting at 1pm. Maybe even catch am AA meeting later
I'm going to keep taking the Antabuse even if it didn't stop the last bender. I think the longer you take it the more effective it is.
This is my last chance. I'll be homeless if I drink again
I want to go back to college in September. If I get sober now I'll have seventeen weeks and five days starting college. I need those seventeen weeks. I need this last throw of the die to work
So my plan for today is to not drink, get to a smart meeting at 1pm. Maybe even catch am AA meeting later
I'm going to keep taking the Antabuse even if it didn't stop the last bender. I think the longer you take it the more effective it is.
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Go FF. You have a college goal and a short term plan which is a great start. As they say, one day at a time, so hope to see you are posting tomorrow at day 3.
Thoughts are with you as the first few days are pretty awful to deal with. Hang in there and read and post often. Hope the meetings go well and provide you with additional inspiration and courage.
My task for tonight is to commit to a plan on the steps I need to take before ever taking a drink again - maybe you might like to think about doing something similar?
Thoughts are with you as the first few days are pretty awful to deal with. Hang in there and read and post often. Hope the meetings go well and provide you with additional inspiration and courage.
My task for tonight is to commit to a plan on the steps I need to take before ever taking a drink again - maybe you might like to think about doing something similar?
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I'm glad you made it back.I think you need to be looking at inpatient rehab too man.
Even if you never actually have to walk through the doors it's got to be an available possible option right now.
Better there than homeless?
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Even if you never actually have to walk through the doors it's got to be an available possible option right now.
Better there than homeless?
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Yeah when the rehabs reopen it's definitely something I'll look into. But I'm going to have to manage the next few weeks on my own.
Honestly I think the last bender scared me to the point that I really don't want to drink
Nothing good seems to ever come from it
Unfortunately my 1pm meeting was cancelled but there's one tonight at 7;30pm I'm going to catch
Honestly I think the last bender scared me to the point that I really don't want to drink
Nothing good seems to ever come from it
Unfortunately my 1pm meeting was cancelled but there's one tonight at 7;30pm I'm going to catch
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Went to an online AA meeting. There was over 150 people at it! Very intimidating. It was the 24/7 zoom meeting
Looking forward to my SMART meeting at 7:30pm. Though the evening meetings can have a lot of people at them
But at least you can just type
Looking forward to my SMART meeting at 7:30pm. Though the evening meetings can have a lot of people at them
But at least you can just type
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Good job FF. Once we completely decide that enough is enough.......it starts getting better day by day.
Stay hydrated. Eat a bit if you can.
At even 8 hrs sober our bodies can start taking in nutrients and vitamins.
I found that taking vitamins early and even some yogurt on day 2 helped me to remember that I was COMMITTING to my health and beginning to take care of myself. At 47 days it still take a B vit with thiamine every third day or so.
We alcoholics deplete thiamine in our systems. They put me on a thiamine drip (after the anti-convulsants) at the hospital once.
Anyway, eating better and taking little steps to look after myself was a change that fortified my resolve to get better.
I’m glad you are taking this disease seriously. It’s time to look after you !
Best to you! Keep posting.
Stay hydrated. Eat a bit if you can.
At even 8 hrs sober our bodies can start taking in nutrients and vitamins.
I found that taking vitamins early and even some yogurt on day 2 helped me to remember that I was COMMITTING to my health and beginning to take care of myself. At 47 days it still take a B vit with thiamine every third day or so.
We alcoholics deplete thiamine in our systems. They put me on a thiamine drip (after the anti-convulsants) at the hospital once.
Anyway, eating better and taking little steps to look after myself was a change that fortified my resolve to get better.
I’m glad you are taking this disease seriously. It’s time to look after you !
Best to you! Keep posting.
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Originally Posted by TiredCarpenter 
Good job FF. Once we completely decide that enough is enough.......it starts getting better day by day.
Stay hydrated. Eat a bit if you can.
At even 8 hrs sober our bodies can start taking in nutrients and vitamins.
I found that taking vitamins early and even some yogurt on day 2 helped me to remember that I was COMMITTING to my health and beginning to take care of myself. At 47 days it still take a B vit with thiamine every third day or so.
We alcoholics deplete thiamine in our systems. They put me on a thiamine drip (after the anti-convulsants) at the hospital once.
Anyway, eating better and taking little steps to look after myself was a change that fortified my resolve to get better.
I’m glad you are taking this disease seriously. It’s time to look after you !
Best to you! Keep posting.
Stay hydrated. Eat a bit if you can.
At even 8 hrs sober our bodies can start taking in nutrients and vitamins.
I found that taking vitamins early and even some yogurt on day 2 helped me to remember that I was COMMITTING to my health and beginning to take care of myself. At 47 days it still take a B vit with thiamine every third day or so.
We alcoholics deplete thiamine in our systems. They put me on a thiamine drip (after the anti-convulsants) at the hospital once.
Anyway, eating better and taking little steps to look after myself was a change that fortified my resolve to get better.
I’m glad you are taking this disease seriously. It’s time to look after you !
Best to you! Keep posting.
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Was too knackered for the smart .meeting so went to bed early
Going to catch another one in 90 minutes. Going for a 4k walk in the meantime
Feeling better now on day 3
Still taking the Antabuse but don't intend on testing it this time
Going to catch another one in 90 minutes. Going for a 4k walk in the meantime
Feeling better now on day 3
Still taking the Antabuse but don't intend on testing it this time
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Well it's come to the end of the day. I might not get to sleep anytime soon but I've taken my pills and gotten into bed.
So looks like I'll be waking up on day 4. Still had some AV today but there's a million reasons I want to stay stopped so I'm just dismissing it.
So looks like I'll be waking up on day 4. Still had some AV today but there's a million reasons I want to stay stopped so I'm just dismissing it.
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I may be wrong about this, but antabuse is not meant to stop you from craving alcohol but it is dangerous to drink on it - and that's where the efficacy lies - in fear.
https://www.everydayhealth.com/drugs/antabuse
I think testing it is a bit like playing Russian Roulette, FF.
I didn't use any meds to stop drinking, but I was committed. I think if you are not 100% committed, then maybe antabuse isn't a good idea?
Combining Antabuse with alcohol — such as by taking it while already drunk — can cause a fatal reaction.
I think testing it is a bit like playing Russian Roulette, FF.
I didn't use any meds to stop drinking, but I was committed. I think if you are not 100% committed, then maybe antabuse isn't a good idea?
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Yeah I know. Was really looking forward to those exercise endorphins tho! Guess I could still go for a walk
Need to order a new bank card seem to have lost it on my bender
Don't know how I always lose things
Miraculously didn't lose my phone or glasses though this time
Need to order a new bank card seem to have lost it on my bender
Don't know how I always lose things
Miraculously didn't lose my phone or glasses though this time
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I live with my parents and they have a bottle of hand sanitizer at the front door. I can't ask them to hide it as they have it there so they can sanitizer their hands as soon as they get in.
But I find it so tempting. I guess I just need to remind myself why I'm not drinking
But I find it so tempting. I guess I just need to remind myself why I'm not drinking
- better relationship with parents
- Not to get kicked out
- Better relationship with my siblings
- I need to get my **** together for college this year
- I need to save money
- Better health
- Avoid doing embarrassing things
- Avoid horrible hangover anxiety
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Congrats on day four! You're kicking this!
One thing you could add to your list is you don't want to die.
I'm so happy for you. Just make it through today. Is there a non-alcoholic drink you really love that you can have on hand, or would that make a difference for you? It helped me a lot.
One thing you could add to your list is you don't want to die.
I'm so happy for you. Just make it through today. Is there a non-alcoholic drink you really love that you can have on hand, or would that make a difference for you? It helped me a lot.
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