Ekohe

Hello everyone! Hope you're staying safe and doing well.

2019, I spent the year sober. I had a relapse on christmas, then my birthday(february 23rd) and now with this pandemic I have had to stay home and quit a job I was looking forward to starting, after spending the entire winter indoors, a lot of my anxiety has resurfaced with this pandemic, and I used that as an excuse to drink again, and it's been quickly escalating since mid march. I have decided I need to get back into posting, and I will attend local AA meetings online via zoom.

Right now, on day 1, feel terrible, full of regret and worry. I do know that I will quickly recover physically but need to work on healing mentally and spiritually.

Thank you for always being here, means a lot to me.

TiredCarpenter

Good job getting back here.

Plenty of caring support here at SR.

Maybe you won’t ever need to feel the pain of a day one again.
Who knows?

Dee74

I'm glad you made it back Ekohe

you know the drill - make a plan and then pit that plan itno immediate full commitment action.

You can do this

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Hevyn

I'm glad you came back to us, Ekohe.
I remember that regretful, anxious feeling - it's so good to be free of it. Sounds like you're ready this time.

Gottalife

Glad you made it back Ekohe. The online and zoom meetings seem to be a big help in the present circumstances, but they have their limits when it comes to finding someone to help you through the steps, which is where true recovery is to be found. Hopefully you have some contacts from the past who will be able to help with that.

Lucinda2

Welcome back.

anxiousrock

I know that feeling too well so I know what you're going through. Glad you we're able to decide to come back here for support during this time.

Reid82

Welcome back, hope you can make it stick this time around.

Steely

Sobriety is so much better.

No comparison.

Tetrax

Hey, it's good to see you back. Check in at some point today

Ekohe

Should have checked in, ended up drinking friday night, last night and 3 beers this morning.
Let's try this again, I am going to check in daily, and put the plan on paper again, i will also implement things that got me a year sober in 2019. I can and have to do this.

Robbie64

The main thing is you've come back. And checking in daily is a good idea - I've noticed that I drift away from SR when I start to crave alcohol. Posting daily, and updating us on how you are feeling is a good idea.

Dee74

Some one said something profound in another thread this week - they realise now that recovery is not just for when you crave a drink - it's an ever present new way of thinking and living.
I can't encapsulate what recovery is any better than that.

Ekohe

That's so true, Dee thank you for that.
Checking in on day 2, feeling better tonight, had a great long talk with the family about where I am at, and opened up a bit about my struggles. Doing a vision board tonight and going to put it up where I see it daily. Welcome to more suggestions as well!

EndGameNYC

I don't know who you are, but I'm happy that you're back.