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I drink to avoid emotion when in abusive relationships. In 2012 this site helped me become sober and leave my abusive husband. But then what I realized today and was that my last relationship was abusive too. I've been numb for 3 + years and when I feel emotions I drink to escape my feelings. I am no longer with this person but his actions retriggered me. For the last 3 + years I have been becoming more and more depressed. Then Monday I drank and absolutely lost my mind. I think I was processing everything. But the good that came out of it was I realized I was in denial about being in another abusive relationship. I have made appointments with the correct people to deal with the abuse, but am here to get support to stay away from alcohol and when in a good place support others to quit alcohol. Sober I am an innocent survivor but when drinking I become the helpless victim. Since realizing and noting the abuse the innocent survivor is becoming more the unfuckwithable survivor and is being proactive in seeking supports and one day being a support to those who need to kick addictions in the ass.
Now that I realized the destruction I have been doing with alcohol to avoid my feelings, I realize I am DONE with that ****.
I appreciate this site so much, it is the best support system for quitting addictions I have ever known.
I am honored to be a member again.
I drink to avoid emotion when in abusive relationships. In 2012 this site helped me become sober and leave my abusive husband. But then what I realized today and was that my last relationship was abusive too. I've been numb for 3 + years and when I feel emotions I drink to escape my feelings. I am no longer with this person but his actions retriggered me. For the last 3 + years I have been becoming more and more depressed. Then Monday I drank and absolutely lost my mind. I think I was processing everything. But the good that came out of it was I realized I was in denial about being in another abusive relationship. I have made appointments with the correct people to deal with the abuse, but am here to get support to stay away from alcohol and when in a good place support others to quit alcohol. Sober I am an innocent survivor but when drinking I become the helpless victim. Since realizing and noting the abuse the innocent survivor is becoming more the unfuckwithable survivor and is being proactive in seeking supports and one day being a support to those who need to kick addictions in the ass.
Now that I realized the destruction I have been doing with alcohol to avoid my feelings, I realize I am DONE with that ****.
I appreciate this site so much, it is the best support system for quitting addictions I have ever known.
I am honored to be a member again.
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Originally Posted by CamiVonMalice 
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Sober I am an innocent survivor but when drinking I become the helpless victim.
Sober I am an innocent survivor but when drinking I become the helpless victim.
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Hi Cami,
Welcome to the group. I absolutely love your profile photo. Truer words have not been spoken.
I'm glad you are getting help for the abuse issues. Also stop drinking while you are doing all of this. "Unf**kwithable" sounds like a good attitude to have! Check in often please and I wish you the best.
Welcome to the group. I absolutely love your profile photo. Truer words have not been spoken.
I'm glad you are getting help for the abuse issues. Also stop drinking while you are doing all of this. "Unf**kwithable" sounds like a good attitude to have! Check in often please and I wish you the best.
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