Donnylutz

I won't have one. These cravings are rare and annoying - but they are temporary.

I told myself when I got sober that I could drink again if I had a good reason. Of course, a good reason to drink doesn't exist!

I talk it out - it's a conversation between me and my drinking self (ds)

Ds - I want a drink
Me: why?
Ds - because I do
Me: that's not a good reason!
ds - just one
me: you know that isn't possible

So, no drink.

Have a good sober night everyone 💗

ThatWasTheOldMe

I believe that the sober version of most addicts / alcoholics is the closest version to their true self.

Derringer

I'd take some further action on your sobriety plan if I was you.

You are having a spate of drinking dreams too as of late.

So it's coming at you awake and asleep.

I don't wanna sound alarmist, but I also don't wanna be a Pollyanna about this either.

It might be nothing, it might be a lil warning sign.

Protect what you got at all costs.

silentrun

Howdy fellow Minnesotan. I used to challenge the AV in early recovery. It can never stand up to scrutiny.

least

Glad you came here and posted instead of drinking.

Donnylutz

Thanks everyone - I'm good. I'm meeting my sponsor for coffee in the am and have AA tomorrow night. I'm not giving in.....I'm still craving, I'm finishing my tea and going to bed. :-)

Surrendered19

We don't drink anymore Donnylutz. That way madness lies my friend. You know that. Is your sober year 2012? Don't drink. It sounds like your plan is a good one.

ThatWasTheOldMe

All of that is you winning against alcoholism.

Derringer

That's good news.

The obsession was lifted for me, just after the first 9th step amends.
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Weird as it sounds I didn't even realize it had gone till it had been gone for about 3 weeks.

I was standing outside a meeting having a chat, as you do and it all of a sudden hit me like a ton of bricks.

I hadn't had one single peep of a thought of a drink, since that amends.

Now they had stopped and I hadn't even realised, until I did. 😃

Donnylutz

The craving is gone - 30 minutes or so.... that's all it had. It's losing its grip fast - I made it another day! Goodnight all

D122y

I used to think i would crave for life.

I expected and excepted it.

Then it went away.

When it went away, the underlying obsessing remained.

I obsess less now than ever.

I used to talk to myself outloud sometimes. Going over some made up issue.

The biggest thing I came up with that sends me to bed at ease is this...

I made my problems, nobody else. If the boss doesn't like me, it is not his fault.

It is all me.

After that I pray to God to help me handle my first world issues.

It is tough to complain when there are so many folks in bad shape... e.g. homeless or missing all their limbs etc.

Thanks.

Dee74

You're always welcome to post and ask for help Donny - glad you got through this time.

D

Donnylutz

this group is the only reason I finally gave up and went to treatment. I'm happy to be here to maintain my sobriety and to be a small part of maybe helping someone else keep theirs. :-)

elisava

I've got some sober time under my belt... and out of nowhere my AV kicked up again today as well! Sneaky bastard!

brighterday1234

FeelingGreat

Donny I found 5 deep breaths, while concentrating on my body, banished cravings right away. Worth trying if you haven't already.

Donnylutz

Good morning!!, and that it is!!!!!!

I'm proud of myself for not caving to a craving - but even more proud that when the craving hit the first thing I did was text my sponsor and jump on here. Staying sober isn't always easy as we all know, but having a plan for those hard times makes it easier!

Off for coffee with my sponsor, another good sober day at work, and then AA tonight.

Have a great day everyone!

healthystep1

I couldn't agree more. I vaguely remember who I was when I wasn't drinking; kind, patient, selfless. During my brief moments of sobriety (a few days at a time), I would feel like my old self again. Then I would give in and get drunk... and become mean, impatient, and selfish. I've been sober two days now (confident I can make it three today) and I feel my old self returning; back to normal.