From Being Bored to Board Meetings
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From Being Bored to Board Meetings
So two weeks ago I began my job as a Membership Director at a non-profit and tonight I sat at my very first Board Meeting in my life.
I am in constant amazement at sobriety and the gifts it has brought me. Two months ago, I was drunk every day, crying, depressed, contemplating not living anymore, couldn't even walk outside and now I am dressing business professional and speaking (semi-confidently) to a group of wealthy Miami Beach residents about how I am going to revamp an entire department. I would never have imagined this for myself. I didn't have the self-esteem or the confidence.
I realize, through the program of AA and checking myself daily (actually, by the SECOND) that once I gave up control and surrendered to the Divine Force of The Universe, things started happening. I got out of my own way and let things BE.
My life had become unmanageable because I kept trying to manage it. I had to let go.
I feel good but I realize that this is the most dangerous territory for me to be in at 55 days sober. I have been given a lot, very quickly and I know that just as quickly I could try to think for myself and it could all go away. In a second. A blip.
Someone said something to me that stuck, "I have ALCOHOL-ISM. Not WASM. ISM. Because it IS always in me."
I have to remember that. I need that to stay sober.
Thanks to everyone here at SR, for playing a part in keeping me sober today. I have checked in for 55 days, and have no plan to stop it. Love you all.
Nic
I am in constant amazement at sobriety and the gifts it has brought me. Two months ago, I was drunk every day, crying, depressed, contemplating not living anymore, couldn't even walk outside and now I am dressing business professional and speaking (semi-confidently) to a group of wealthy Miami Beach residents about how I am going to revamp an entire department. I would never have imagined this for myself. I didn't have the self-esteem or the confidence.
I realize, through the program of AA and checking myself daily (actually, by the SECOND) that once I gave up control and surrendered to the Divine Force of The Universe, things started happening. I got out of my own way and let things BE.
My life had become unmanageable because I kept trying to manage it. I had to let go.
I feel good but I realize that this is the most dangerous territory for me to be in at 55 days sober. I have been given a lot, very quickly and I know that just as quickly I could try to think for myself and it could all go away. In a second. A blip.
Someone said something to me that stuck, "I have ALCOHOL-ISM. Not WASM. ISM. Because it IS always in me."
I have to remember that. I need that to stay sober.
Thanks to everyone here at SR, for playing a part in keeping me sober today. I have checked in for 55 days, and have no plan to stop it. Love you all.
Nic
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NicLin.
Fifty-five days is wonderful, and so is your message of hope to those still suffering from this disease.
I also heard early on in meetings that the alcohol-ISM, the ISM stood for I, self, and me. It sure was true in my case. I love those prayers in the Big Book. They truly are the foundation of my sober journey. Thank you for sharing this.
Fifty-five days is wonderful, and so is your message of hope to those still suffering from this disease.
I also heard early on in meetings that the alcohol-ISM, the ISM stood for I, self, and me. It sure was true in my case. I love those prayers in the Big Book. They truly are the foundation of my sober journey. Thank you for sharing this.
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Originally Posted by NicLin 
So two weeks ago I began my job as a Membership Director at a non-profit and tonight I sat at my very first Board Meeting in my life.
I am in constant amazement at sobriety and the gifts it has brought me. Two months ago, I was drunk every day, crying, depressed, contemplating not living anymore, couldn't even walk outside and now I am dressing business professional and speaking (semi-confidently) to a group of wealthy Miami Beach residents about how I am going to revamp an entire department. I would never have imagined this for myself. I didn't have the self-esteem or the confidence.
I realize, through the program of AA and checking myself daily (actually, by the SECOND) that once I gave up control and surrendered to the Divine Force of The Universe, things started happening. I got out of my own way and let things BE.
My life had become unmanageable because I kept trying to manage it. I had to let go.
I feel good but I realize that this is the most dangerous territory for me to be in at 55 days sober. I have been given a lot, very quickly and I know that just as quickly I could try to think for myself and it could all go away. In a second. A blip.
Someone said something to me that stuck, "I have ALCOHOL-ISM. Not WASM. ISM. Because it IS always in me."
I have to remember that. I need that to stay sober.
Thanks to everyone here at SR, for playing a part in keeping me sober today. I have checked in for 55 days, and have no plan to stop it. Love you all.
Nic
I am in constant amazement at sobriety and the gifts it has brought me. Two months ago, I was drunk every day, crying, depressed, contemplating not living anymore, couldn't even walk outside and now I am dressing business professional and speaking (semi-confidently) to a group of wealthy Miami Beach residents about how I am going to revamp an entire department. I would never have imagined this for myself. I didn't have the self-esteem or the confidence.
I realize, through the program of AA and checking myself daily (actually, by the SECOND) that once I gave up control and surrendered to the Divine Force of The Universe, things started happening. I got out of my own way and let things BE.
My life had become unmanageable because I kept trying to manage it. I had to let go.
I feel good but I realize that this is the most dangerous territory for me to be in at 55 days sober. I have been given a lot, very quickly and I know that just as quickly I could try to think for myself and it could all go away. In a second. A blip.
Someone said something to me that stuck, "I have ALCOHOL-ISM. Not WASM. ISM. Because it IS always in me."
I have to remember that. I need that to stay sober.
Thanks to everyone here at SR, for playing a part in keeping me sober today. I have checked in for 55 days, and have no plan to stop it. Love you all.
Nic
My sobriety has taken me to places I would have never dreamt possible.
My alcoholism, on the other hand, took me to liquor stores, dives, taverns, strip joints and the homes of drug dealers.
From a results standpoint, it's quite a contrast.
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