secretchord

In the past week, I've woken up with puffy eyes twice, most recently this morning. I normally don't cry when I drink, but it's becoming a trend apparently. Family drama happened yesterday, and I need to make some serious changes in my life. The first being that I need to love myself, and care less about what other people think of me.

God help this be my last Day 1.

kk1k5x

I hope you'll feel better soon. Take care. Put You and your sobriety first.

entropy1964

Yeah. No solution in a bottle. Glad you are trying again.

biminiblue

I was ridiculously over-sensitive/too sensitive to my own emotions when I was drinking and I cried over any and everything.

It gets better with sober time. Continuous long-term sober time, though. Not a month; I'm talking a year or so.

aasharon90

There are many folks who place themselves
into the hands of those capable of teaching
us about addiction and a program of recovery
we can use as a guideline to help us build a
strong foundation to live our sober lives upon
for yrs to come.

I, myself, was one of them, but it was
thru the love and concern my husband
and his family had for me to seek that
help. It was them doing for me that I wasn't
capable of doing for myself at that time
in my life 28 yrs ago.

I spent 28 day in a rehab facility for my
alcohol addiction where I was taught about
my addiction and was given the gift of a
recovery program I could and would incorporate
in my everyday life on a continuous bases
each day I remained sober.

Today, I continue on my recovery journey
sober, still learning how to live with people,
place and things that ruffle my feathers or
letting go of resentments from the past.

Learning about forgiveness. Growing and
maturing over the yrs. with every step I
take.

There are many ways to learn how to remain
sober as you will read here in SR. I use the AA
program that was taught to me yrs ago and continue
to use it because that is the program that works
for me.

However, it never hurts to be openminded as
to what other folks use for their own lives to
remain sober. And if it works for them and they
are achieving, healthy, happy, honest lives,
then im all in for learning that too.

Use all the resources available to you to achieve
a healthy, happy sober life for yourself too.

August252015

Glad you are making this day one, SC! What are your plans today to make that happen?

Happyvale

So very true.... it's pretty much the same reason I put down the bottle as an answer...any old answer for any old thing as it was.

Good on you and bright shiny blessings on this Day 1.

secretchord

I bought a treadmill today and I'm going to start exercising when I get cravings.

least

Don't just hope it's your last day one - make it so.

Tailai

Dee74

I recommend making a recovery action plan - treadmills are good (I bought an exercise bike) but my experience suggests that alone is probably not going to keep you sober.

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ery-plans.html (Psst...wanna know why I'm always recommending recovery plans?)

Hope is good but you can, without any doubt make this your last day one SC

D

Hevyn

There's no doubt you can do it, secretchord! It only brings us misery, we've proven that.

Whatsdoneisdone

You can do it! Don’t concern yourself with what others think, just always remind yourself that you are strong and not going to let a liquid run your life into the ground. You don’t need it. You are stronger without it.
Get mad when you feel like drinking, get determined. Say “No, I’m not letting you take control of my ******* life anymore! I’m in control, this is MY life not yours!”
believe in yourself. Believe that you are strong enough. You can do it.

D122y

I learned here that booze alters dopamine production in my brain.

I needed booze to feel happy and normal.

No booze equaled unhappy and abnormal.

I totally immersed myself in exercise, specifically as much cardio as I could handle.

The suffering I felt from cardio and the natural opiates created helped me build a new sober lifestyle.

I never really changed my life except I stopped drinking.

I never really went out just to drink. I used to always do most of my drinking at home.

I substituted drinking at home with eating. I ate when I craved. I ate all the time.

I didn't take any Dr. meds. I suffered through. It caused some ptsd, but I used that to stay clean.

If I would not have found SR, I would be in a world of hell tonight.

Thanks.

secretchord

It's Day 2 and I'm checking in. I feel better this morning. I'm ready for my first sober weekend in awhile!

Newbeginning421

Congrats on day 2 keep going strong!

Happyvale

Day 2. Awesome!

secretchord

Didn't take long to get to my first craving right now. I'm still upset about family stuff from the other day. Like I talked about in a recent thread, my sister is throwing me a surprise party, come to find out that the whole thing is being thrown because she's thinks my husband is a degenerate. She told me that he doesn't treat me well, etc. etc. I'm not sure where all this came from, perhaps her own insecurities. I have pretty gut feeling that she's been talking trash about him for awhile now to my other family members. I'm livid to say the least, and not looking forward to this party. Can someone say huge trigger? Ugh.

Happyvale

A surprise party to what.... use as opportunity for a husband intervention? That's insane.
Best to deal with that with all your wits about ya I'd say. Sparkly supportive thoughts aimed right at ya friend.

secretchord

A surprise birthday party. I should say that it WAS a surprise party until they told me about it. lol