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My doctor recently asked me if I wanted to quit smoking.
I said "No".
She looked very perturbed. This wasn't a usual response.
But it was honest.
I explained to her that I can't "quit" anything. It would pop up somewhere else. I explained that until the underlying causes and conditions to my addiction are resolved, I will just have to smoke.
She didn't like that at all.
She is a scientific person. Any talk of spiritual/emotional issues being the true cause of something physical, tangible, literal etc., causes scientific folk to bristle with antagonism.
Sometimes I forget, I could've just said, "I have a plan."
Because my plan is God's plan.

I am a real addict.
And underneath all addictions is some type of spiritual/mental blockage that still remains. Sometimes I'm just being selfish and I don't want to do a simple turnaround on my fear of not smoking. As time has gone on, more stuff has piled up. And it's so much to contend with that on my days off work I just don't feel like going there and handling it.

The difference is that with recovery steps behind me I am armed with information about myself. I knpw what to do. I guess it'll be in mine and God's time.