I drank
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I drank
I drank, full-well knowing I shouldn't. Full well knowing that I'd be hungover and anxious miserable, I drank. I'm getting pretty sick of this game.
And you know what....alcohol just isn't doing for me what it used to. I seem to always be chasing that "first high", the elated feeling I used to get when I was younger.
And it just doesn't seem to be happening anymore.
I feel pretty good, relaxed for about 30 mins I'd say. But then I always need another drink to "keep it up."
And then, low and behold, I'm anxious and miserable and disappointed with myself the following day.
I'm pretty tired of this dance. I don't wanna pick up that first drink again, ever.
But how many times have I said that before? And how many times have I failed.
I just don't know anymore.
And you know what....alcohol just isn't doing for me what it used to. I seem to always be chasing that "first high", the elated feeling I used to get when I was younger.
And it just doesn't seem to be happening anymore.
I feel pretty good, relaxed for about 30 mins I'd say. But then I always need another drink to "keep it up."
And then, low and behold, I'm anxious and miserable and disappointed with myself the following day.
I'm pretty tired of this dance. I don't wanna pick up that first drink again, ever.
But how many times have I said that before? And how many times have I failed.
I just don't know anymore.
I've been there many, many times. It got to be tiresome and not worth it. But, it takes strength to break the cycle. SR helps me stay on my path. I hope you find your way out. Keep posting!
I think we've all been there SkyBird. For me the solution was to accept without question that drinking was not an option. I tried desperately to try to make alcohol work for me through every possible moderation/control scenario I could. I attempted to control the frequency, amount, type, volume, time of day and just about every other conceivable way to "moderate" my consumption, but every single time I always returned to daily binge drinking. And i also got the point where I didn't even feel any good feelings when I drank - i simply had to do it to stave off withdrawals.
The good news is that the decision to quit for good is one anyone can make - doesn't matter how old you are, how much you drank, etc. The bad news is that it's hard - really hard - especially at first. But I can tell you without question that my life is far better now than when I drank alcohol - in every possible way. Yours can be too.
The good news is that the decision to quit for good is one anyone can make - doesn't matter how old you are, how much you drank, etc. The bad news is that it's hard - really hard - especially at first. But I can tell you without question that my life is far better now than when I drank alcohol - in every possible way. Yours can be too.
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The buzz from drinking is so short lived, it's actually pointless if you think about it.
You feel good for about 30 minutes, then you are just chasing the buzz as you get more and more intoxicated, lethargic, bloated, sick, incoherent, stupid.
Playing the tape forward helps me alot. I think about what happens after the first drink. I will want more, as its pointless having one drink. I'll need a bottle, once I have a bottle I might fancy carrying on, as I will have a real taste for it, so maybe two bottles of wine. I'll drink those, and then I won't remember going to sleep, and I'll wake up in the morning feeling depressed, anxious and craving more drink to make me feel better.
Or I can just not drink, and avoid all of that. Quite an easy decision when you think about it.
You feel good for about 30 minutes, then you are just chasing the buzz as you get more and more intoxicated, lethargic, bloated, sick, incoherent, stupid.
Playing the tape forward helps me alot. I think about what happens after the first drink. I will want more, as its pointless having one drink. I'll need a bottle, once I have a bottle I might fancy carrying on, as I will have a real taste for it, so maybe two bottles of wine. I'll drink those, and then I won't remember going to sleep, and I'll wake up in the morning feeling depressed, anxious and craving more drink to make me feel better.
Or I can just not drink, and avoid all of that. Quite an easy decision when you think about it.
Believe that you can do this, because you can. You can decide to stop drinking now and to live a sober life. Chasing the high is pointless as you have found. Can you come up with a plan for how to get through the early days of recovery?
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The buzz from drinking is so short lived, it's actually pointless if you think about it.
You feel good for about 30 minutes, then you are just chasing the buzz as you get more and more intoxicated, lethargic, bloated, sick, incoherent, stupid.
Playing the tape forward helps me alot. I think about what happens after the first drink. I will want more, as its pointless having one drink. I'll need a bottle, once I have a bottle I might fancy carrying on, as I will have a real taste for it, so maybe two bottles of wine. I'll drink those, and then I won't remember going to sleep, and I'll wake up in the morning feeling depressed, anxious and craving more drink to make me feel better.
Or I can just not drink, and avoid all of that. Quite an easy decision when you think about it.
You feel good for about 30 minutes, then you are just chasing the buzz as you get more and more intoxicated, lethargic, bloated, sick, incoherent, stupid.
Playing the tape forward helps me alot. I think about what happens after the first drink. I will want more, as its pointless having one drink. I'll need a bottle, once I have a bottle I might fancy carrying on, as I will have a real taste for it, so maybe two bottles of wine. I'll drink those, and then I won't remember going to sleep, and I'll wake up in the morning feeling depressed, anxious and craving more drink to make me feel better.
Or I can just not drink, and avoid all of that. Quite an easy decision when you think about it.
This is exactly how my drink pattern went.
Such a pointless exercise 🙏
I couldn't have said it better Skybird. It's the warm buzz the first 2-3 beers give me that I am always chasing and trying to maintain. However, by the 6th or 7th pint, I am intoxicated and the gloves are off. I will be drunk for days.
I cannot have that 1st pint no matter what.
I cannot have that 1st pint no matter what.
You know you don't like it anymore and it doesn't make you happy. Make a 100% commitment to stop my friend, make new plans/hobbies/activities to replace the time you would spend drinking, make sure you don't fet bored and remove those bad influences ans dangerous enviroments. You can do it if you 100% commit and build a new life to replace the old one.
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I was a couple of days sober and went to a meeting where someone said something that resonated with me "I want to wake up in the morning proud of what I did the night before." Now, I'm not always proud of what I did (maybe I simply watched TV) but I'm never disappointed like I used to be when I was drinking.
I felt this same way when I had bulimia. Every time I would swear it would be last binge. The last purge. I'd start new tomorrow. It was the same hopeless, dissapointed feeling.
It is day 2 for me (after finding this website yesterday). I just understand what you're feeling.
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Early recovery feels miserable... I know. But I also know what’s on the other side. And it’s so worth it. I’m trying to get back there too. We just can’t guve up. We have to keep trying and trying until it finally sticks. I have to believe it will.
Maybe look at the one year and over threads.
I’m not there yet but it’s a goal.
In my early days I lurked there a lot to see if people were really happy sober or if they were still white knuckling it.
In fact, I was so excited in my early days I posted there accidentally. Must just be a premonition😊
You got this
I’m not there yet but it’s a goal.
In my early days I lurked there a lot to see if people were really happy sober or if they were still white knuckling it.
In fact, I was so excited in my early days I posted there accidentally. Must just be a premonition😊
You got this
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