The obsession has been removed
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The obsession has been removed
At 102 days, doing my personal inventory, praying to a Higher Power of my understanding and fellow-shipping with other alcoholics, the desire to drink has been removed.
I walked into a grocery store and didn't even crave that bottle of wine I saw.
Alcohol is disgusting. Besides its taste- which is absolutely repugnant- it makes me into a horrible, disgusting version of myself that I don't want to be.
Think you're that classy girl sitting at a bar with a martini? Nope, you're an out of control, sloppy drunk who had 5 shots before the bar. Bags under your eyes, skin flushed, hair a mess- you're not cute. That guy you're flirting with doesn't think you're cute either- he thinks you're a mess and probably wants nothing to do with you.
And then, let's say this is a "good night" - you end up all alone, crying in your bed, mascara running down your face, drunk as ****.
Alcohol is an illusion. You think it's making you sexier , more confident, more fun to be around, but it's making you a ******** (excuse my language) , out of control, embarrassing mess that no one, not even yourself wants to be around.
Oh, and not to mention the weight gain. You'll easily put on 10-15 pounds from all the nightly wine. Alcohol makes a 25 year old girl look like she's 45. Cellulite, bloated stomach, wretched skin.
Nope, alcohol's not cute. Stop tricking yourself into thinking that it is.
I walked into a grocery store and didn't even crave that bottle of wine I saw.
Alcohol is disgusting. Besides its taste- which is absolutely repugnant- it makes me into a horrible, disgusting version of myself that I don't want to be.
Think you're that classy girl sitting at a bar with a martini? Nope, you're an out of control, sloppy drunk who had 5 shots before the bar. Bags under your eyes, skin flushed, hair a mess- you're not cute. That guy you're flirting with doesn't think you're cute either- he thinks you're a mess and probably wants nothing to do with you.
And then, let's say this is a "good night" - you end up all alone, crying in your bed, mascara running down your face, drunk as ****.
Alcohol is an illusion. You think it's making you sexier , more confident, more fun to be around, but it's making you a ******** (excuse my language) , out of control, embarrassing mess that no one, not even yourself wants to be around.
Oh, and not to mention the weight gain. You'll easily put on 10-15 pounds from all the nightly wine. Alcohol makes a 25 year old girl look like she's 45. Cellulite, bloated stomach, wretched skin.
Nope, alcohol's not cute. Stop tricking yourself into thinking that it is.
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Beautiful work. I know the feeling of repulsion you felt. I had it too recently, around some drunk co-workers.
But the deceitful, persistent demons reappear as well.
Vigilance remains so important, for those of us in this stage of sobriety (I'm in the low 100s too). Congrats and stay strong.
But the deceitful, persistent demons reappear as well.
Vigilance remains so important, for those of us in this stage of sobriety (I'm in the low 100s too). Congrats and stay strong.
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AMEN TO ALL OF THE ABOVE.....
So true......we all look disgusting as only alcoholics can. So sad that we think we look cool and together.
I sometimes wish I could see a video of myself late in the evening. Maybe that would be too painful to watch though.
C
So true......we all look disgusting as only alcoholics can. So sad that we think we look cool and together.
I sometimes wish I could see a video of myself late in the evening. Maybe that would be too painful to watch though.
C
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Well done, Bringmeback. I can add that it makes one's breath so foul (my partner still drinks) he wonders why I never want to kiss him, let alone share a bed with him. I cringe at the thought of how it must have made me smell as well. Life is so much better without the poison, in so many ways. I can be that person my children and grandchildren can be proud of. The risk of falling, hurting oneself <or God forbid, hurting others> is horrifying in my sober mind. Congrats on your sobriety!
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