Day 100 vs the early days
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Day 100 vs the early days
It is almost midnight here and so ends my day 100!! I can't quite believe it!
Today I feel good, I still suffer from anxiety but I no longer wake up in the early hours with extreme anxiety & the feeling of dread, and I no longer get up for work asking myself why I'm slowly drinking myself to death.
When I started with my alcohol counsellor in May last year I couldn't even contemplate 1 day off alcohol, never mind 100! Every day I managed I obsessed about not drinking, it took up most of my daily thoughts, it was a battle. This was my attempt at moderation that didn't work and so I finally quit at the end of September, moderating was too exhausting. Then it was just one day at a time.
Now? I still think about wine (my drink of choice) but I no longer want to drink it....well, most of the time!! Despite some pretty challenging home stuff that would normally send me to the bottom of a bottle, I am here, sober and free!!
Next week I have my final appointment with my alcohol counsellor, I am classed as in recovery. Yippee!!
Today I feel good, I still suffer from anxiety but I no longer wake up in the early hours with extreme anxiety & the feeling of dread, and I no longer get up for work asking myself why I'm slowly drinking myself to death.
When I started with my alcohol counsellor in May last year I couldn't even contemplate 1 day off alcohol, never mind 100! Every day I managed I obsessed about not drinking, it took up most of my daily thoughts, it was a battle. This was my attempt at moderation that didn't work and so I finally quit at the end of September, moderating was too exhausting. Then it was just one day at a time.
Now? I still think about wine (my drink of choice) but I no longer want to drink it....well, most of the time!! Despite some pretty challenging home stuff that would normally send me to the bottom of a bottle, I am here, sober and free!!
Next week I have my final appointment with my alcohol counsellor, I am classed as in recovery. Yippee!!
It keeps getting better, the longer you're sober. 
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Congratulations! I was still a mess after 100 days myself. Around the seven month mark things started getting easier for me but at that point I could look back and see that I had improved more than I realized between 5 and 7 months so I consider 6 months the turning point for me. For me it was one of those things where you don't realize how much you are improving until you look back a bit.
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Great posts! Really inspired me to keep on adding up those sober days. I really want to reach that turning point. I want my mind to be strong again and giving myself some positive thoughts. It seems that the alcohol has put alot of negative thinking and put-downs in my head. It was very distructive to my self-esteem. I don't really need that in my life.
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Originally Posted by ChloeRose63 
Great posts! Really inspired me to keep on adding up those sober days. I really want to reach that turning point. I want my mind to be strong again and giving myself some positive thoughts. It seems that the alcohol has put alot of negative thinking and put-downs in my head. It was very distructive to my self-esteem. I don't really need that in my life.
It toys with your mind and your emotions for a while. I was mad at the world for quite a while there.
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Originally Posted by ChloeRose63
Great posts! Really inspired me to keep on adding up those sober days. I really want to reach that turning point. I want my mind to be strong again and giving myself some positive thoughts. It seems that the alcohol has put alot of negative thinking and put-downs in my head. It was very distructive to my self-esteem. I don't really need that in my life.
Hang in there!
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Originally Posted by Gabe1980
That's awesome, well done JJ. Really inspiring for all us newbies. I can't wait to get to where you are now. Lots of hard work ahead but I'm game for it. Gabe x
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