Drunk Sleep
I think sometimes it's forgotten that alcohol is a quite powerful drug that alters our brain chemistry. Sleep is very much affected, and some even have problems sleeping for a while after quitting too as their brain readjusts.
Drink sleep was awful. I would awaken at 2:00 or 3:00 a.m. with a pounding heart and high anxiety and would lay there until 6:00and start another hungover day.
Blessedly, those days are gone forever.
Blessedly, those days are gone forever.
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Yep, not real sleep just a blackout, then as others said waking up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom or whatever. Than my brain would go into full think mode on what all transpired before I layed down to "sleep". Then the panic sets in. Its never good.
Yes, healthy sleep has been one of the biggest blessings of sobriety.
When I was drinking, I would pass out the minute I hit the bed, but then wake up about 4 hours later, feeling horrible, dehydrated, miserable, full of regret. I have since learned there's a biological, physical reason for that timing, having to do with how your liver metabolizes alcohol. It was like clockwork for me, after drinking a whole bottle of wine, I'd pass out, then wake up at 4 am. I'd eventually go back to sleep, but would feel like death when I had to get up at 7 or 8.
It's just ridiculous what we did to ourselves. One of the things that helps me the most in resisting the urge to drink now is to realize and remember that all I have to do is get through the next hour or so and I will be able to get into bed feeling wonderful, sleep well and wake up with no regrets.
When I was drinking, I would pass out the minute I hit the bed, but then wake up about 4 hours later, feeling horrible, dehydrated, miserable, full of regret. I have since learned there's a biological, physical reason for that timing, having to do with how your liver metabolizes alcohol. It was like clockwork for me, after drinking a whole bottle of wine, I'd pass out, then wake up at 4 am. I'd eventually go back to sleep, but would feel like death when I had to get up at 7 or 8.
It's just ridiculous what we did to ourselves. One of the things that helps me the most in resisting the urge to drink now is to realize and remember that all I have to do is get through the next hour or so and I will be able to get into bed feeling wonderful, sleep well and wake up with no regrets.
And since I was actually sleeping worse for several days after quitting I reasoned that I needed to drink in order to get better sleep. I actually believed that delusion for years and years.
Insanity.
My sleep wasn't restful at all; it was just passing out, coming to and drinking more in a constant hideous and self-destructive cycle. I was recently thinking of the terrible times when I would wake and not know if it was sunrise or sunset--7am or 7pm? Utterly befuddled. Thank God that is over. On the 23rd I'll have 2 years and the thought of drinking fills me with dread and disgust. I wish everyone a restful, sober sleep.
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