Debbie

Hi friends,

I know I haven't posted in a while. I haven't felt like doing much of anything since my husband passed away. I am feeling so sad today. Saturdays were are days to do things together. I think the previous Saturdays since his death I have made myself do things and left the house. I feel sad every day but today I feel sad even more so. I guess thinking of him and missing him and just feeling lonely without him.

He was such a good guy when he wasn't drinking or using, that is how I want to always remember him. A caring, wonderful person who loved me so much and the man I loved. We always said were were going to be life partners.

He was very supportive of me frequenting these boards and being a part of this community. I always tried to get him to visit but he was never interested in computers.

Anway, I just felt like sharing a little and thought this might help me sort through my emotions and help me get through a rough day.

Thanks for listening.

Hugs,
Debbie

JT

Hi Deb,

I would love to be able to hug you for real. There is no easy way to get through this. A doggie kiss might feel real good about now.

Hugs,
JT

Gabe

Hey Deb,
I'm sorry you're having such a down day.
I'm glad you have beautiful memories.
Big hugs and light coming your way,
Gabe

Blondie

I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you.

sdp

Hope you feel better soon....

Ann

Debbie

You're in my thoughts and prayers every day. Some days,, even sad ones, we just need some quiet time to reflect and keep working through stuff. This will take time to heal, so don't try to force yourself through it.

Hang on to those beautiful memories, you will never lose them. May they live in your heart forever, but just leave you less sad in time.

Huge Hugs from my heart to yours
Ann

Debbie

Thanks everyone.

I know time heals and I don't think I am trying to force myself, not sure, maybe I am. Its never going to be normal but a little bit of thinking of him and smiling instead of crying is what I want now and then. Its hard to explain.

Then their are the "boys" . Dodger is like a cat and so independent but he keeps looking for Fred to come home. Sam follows me every where because he misses him and I think he is afraid I am going to leave him too. It just breaks my heart.

Dont mind my rambling. Just getting it out and I know you guys don't mind.

I guess I should go lay down and rest. I am supposed to go to a party tonight but I sure don't feel like going. We shall see.

Thanks for listening and being here. It does help

Ann

Ramble, cry, share away here, Debbie, that's what a fellowship is all about. You are among friends, friends who love you and care. Never forget that, okay?

Hugs
Ann

Morning Glory

Sending huge hugs your way Debbie.

Knowing that time will make it better doesn't help much right now.

We all love you,
MG

Debbie

I love you guys too! Thanks

splendra

(((((((Debbie)))))))))

I am sorry you are feeling so sad. I guess you would not be human if you didn't though. I hope the party lifts you up and that you are able to have some fun.

I wish there was something deep and poetic I could say that would take away all of your pain but it seems that you already know what it will take. I know God is with you. Bless your heart!!!

abtchonamission

(((((((((((Debbie))))))))))

Rella927

(((((Hugs Debbie)))) I'm so sorry for what you are going through-no words can describe the sadness-but those memories you will treasure and keep in your heart forever where no one can touch but you. My husband passed away too and trust me and believe me when I say this-there will never be a day that goes by that you do not think of him-but it will get easier-just cherish those beautiful memories!

((((Mucho Hugs))))

osier59

((( debbie )))

Lots of love and support here for you, whenever you need it.

Love
Barb

Debbie

Thanks everyone. I hope to feel a little better today. I think I need to be busier but its so hard to want to do anything. But today I must keep myself occupied and so all the little chores I keep putting off. I know I am going to have my moments but I pray on the whole that its a good day

Thanks for being here and listening to me.

Hugs and love,
Debbie

Ann

Good Morning, Debbie. Just sending a hug and hope today is better. Keeping busy is a good thing, so try to do something that makes you feel good today, okay?

Hugs
Ann

Gabe

I hope today is a better day for you too Deb.
Hugs and light coming your way,
Gabe

Debbie

Laundry? Stuff I need to get done and I was going to stay in but I think I may do a quick visit to my moms and his moms. I worry about his mom - she is alone most of the time and she hasn't taken this well either. So perhaps I will take her some halloween candy....I have white peanut butter cups

I will be checking in now and then, this computer has always been a magnet

Thanks friends.

In memory of miracle

(( Debbie)) Thinking of you..sending love and light. Trish

melissaealy

debbie,im so sorry for the losse of your husband.ill keep you in my prayers.
hugs to you and i hope you fell better soon.