9 months today
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9 months today
Hi everyone. Nine months ago today, on August 12, I came here and asked for help. I looked inside and asked for help. I turned to this big void some people call god, but which for me, has no real name or description, but which turns out to make perfect and beautiful sense in the most illogical of ways, and I asked for help. And I'm still sober.
I'm not off my knees either, it turns out. Life has gotten WAY better, oh my god, so much better. But just the other day I had to seek serenity. I screwed up and had to check myself and be accountable. "Use the sober muscles" has morphed into "use the gratitude muscles". Being sober has given me the gift of moving on. Not that I'm really great at it yet because I'm not, but I'm so much better than I was nine months ago.
One day at a time, forgive myself and others.
One day at a time, gratitude.
One day at a time, serenity, acceptance (see forgiveness)
One day at a time, courage to change what I can. Keep those things simple.
All these cliches are helping me to be the person I was born to be, and that person is not a cliche. The cliche was drunk sloppy person who said stupid things, did stupid things, trashed her life and the lives of others, was unaccountable and unreliable, trapped in a self inflicted gross little smelly closet of booze breath and headaches and nausea and anger and petty drama. I'm so grateful to be out of it.
I decided that I need to make it a point to come back here more often (fell off that wagon as my monthly group got more quiet over time) but I feel better when I'm connecting with others.
If I can do it, so can anyone here. Grateful for everyone here.
xoxo
B
I'm not off my knees either, it turns out. Life has gotten WAY better, oh my god, so much better. But just the other day I had to seek serenity. I screwed up and had to check myself and be accountable. "Use the sober muscles" has morphed into "use the gratitude muscles". Being sober has given me the gift of moving on. Not that I'm really great at it yet because I'm not, but I'm so much better than I was nine months ago.
One day at a time, forgive myself and others.
One day at a time, gratitude.
One day at a time, serenity, acceptance (see forgiveness)
One day at a time, courage to change what I can. Keep those things simple.
All these cliches are helping me to be the person I was born to be, and that person is not a cliche. The cliche was drunk sloppy person who said stupid things, did stupid things, trashed her life and the lives of others, was unaccountable and unreliable, trapped in a self inflicted gross little smelly closet of booze breath and headaches and nausea and anger and petty drama. I'm so grateful to be out of it.
I decided that I need to make it a point to come back here more often (fell off that wagon as my monthly group got more quiet over time) but I feel better when I'm connecting with others.
If I can do it, so can anyone here. Grateful for everyone here.
xoxo
B
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Join Date: Mar 2017
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SO happy you shared this, and congratulations!!!! Your post is inspiring to me,as I've found solace in one day at a time. Manageable goal for someone who previously thought "moderation" was the key. Couldn't imagine life without alcohol. We are doing this together 
Thanks again!!
Thanks again!!
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Join Date: Aug 2016
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Hey you!! If Im looking at the calender correctly you are now celebrating over 10 months sober!! That is FREAKING awesome! I stopped over at our August thread and no action since April, I hope that means that everyone is doing absolutely wonderful and is just so very busy living their lives to the fullest! This summer has been SO much better then last summer was ....I actually had believed that I couldnt have summer fun without a glass or ten of wine. I couldnt have been more wrong, I am enjoying the summer more then I have in years!
Anyways, I sure hope you are doing great bexxed! I came here this evening and trying to sort of look up some of us Augustians! Im just on this side of 11 months alcohol ( poison) free! Lovin life! Take Care Friend!
Anyways, I sure hope you are doing great bexxed! I came here this evening and trying to sort of look up some of us Augustians! Im just on this side of 11 months alcohol ( poison) free! Lovin life! Take Care Friend!
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