eyes99

After 10 days, I fell of the wagon and drank last night. Six shots. And I feel sick today, emotionally and physically. I'm off to a meeting this evening, but I don't know what to do with all of this shame. I'm just so very ashamed.

Susiegirl

Keep sober and you will become stronger, the shame/guilt will go. 11 days ago I had a knot in my stomach which just felt terrible, so much so I didn't want to get out of bed. Even though I'm still very tired at the moment I am feeling so much better. I no longer have anything to be ashamed of. The past is the past and its staying there. Its all about how I feel now.
Sending hugs x

Mizzuno

Dust yourself off, forgive yourself and move forward. We cant erase the past but we can certainly make different decisions for our future.

grayghost1965

What are you ashamed about ? You slipped. You're an alcoholic and you exhibited your natural behavior. Be proud that you can be upfront about it and want to turn it around. God Bless.

eyes99

Thanks everyone. I never want to feel like this again.

Coldfusion

The Steps of AA will systematically relieve you of the shame from your past. There is hope for the future if you work a program of recovery!

january161992

january161992

great job on demonstrating willingness

the program never asks us to be perfect just willing

willingness is the key

ScottFromWI

You never have to. In fact, you get to choose if you ever do or not.

Glad you came back, I think hitting a meeting today sounds like a great idea. The best thing we can do is to try and find out why we drank...did we not have enough support? Were we not utilizing it enough? Do we need more support? Those kinds of questions will help you find a way to prevent it from happening again - rather than looking back and beating yourself up or feeling sorry about it. Promise yourself that you will never feel like that and then make good on the promise.

Dee74

Like others have said you need never feel this way again

what do you think you might do differently this time?

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SoberNunn

I slipped last night too and drank way more than you. Am I ashamed? Hell yeah! But I'm also more determined than ever to defeat this beast. I think it's time to come clean to my friends and family

Anna

I hope you never feel this way again, too.

Is there something you can add to your recovery program to help prevent another relapse?

PhoenixJ

You posted, so turning shame into proactive action. Hope the meeting goes well.