sweetichick

Things didn't work out with my friends. I ended up drinking more. Today I am extremely sick after being nights of four bottles of wine. I can't go to AA as I will be over the limit to drive. Getting cravings but know I will end up dead if I give into them. Any comments appreciated.

mack215

There appears to be plenty of support here. You're not alone. Im right there with you looking and feeling hopeless, except the fact we are both alive means we have plenty of hope and opportunity to beat this.

badger257

Hello! I'm sure this isn't your first rodeo. Glad you came here and didn't drive. You can do this. Everyone is rooting for you!

Unwound

It's not hopeless, you can beat this;just get through today and you've got a better chance of getting through tomorrow. Drinking never made anything better for me and I never thought I could make it this far but I have, you can too.

Dee74

hi sweetichick

I hope you can work out what to do to stay sober for good this time.

Whatever your problems are, drinking's not helping solve them.

I think if you're still open to the idea of AA it's a good horse to get back on - maybe even get a sponsor and go through the steps?

D

MsCooterBrown

Hi Sweetichick. We can help. I think with addiction...it takes a few times. I got told I take it too lightly and made someones blood boil. I take it very seriously. I just have to use humor with everything... Get back with it. Get a plan. I have to start over again. What really helps me is keep a journal. ALSO make a list. Get your Big Chief note pad out. Fold it in half. One side is the pros of drinking. The other is the cons. I will venture a guess that the CONS will beat out the pros. I did this...but didn't look back. I will now look at it PLUS check in here when I think I need a drink. Addiction = Insanity...always has. Insanity is doing the same thing over and over with no different results. I hate the saying of "Nothing changes if nothing changes" but it is true! Peace to you.

sweetichick

That's a great idea. Focus on the fact of still being a alive. I look terrible in the face. Hopefully that will pass for both of us.

sweetichick

I am still open to AA. At least they understand how hard it is. Keeping a journal and graditude list are all great ideas top of the list will be that I didn't die while drinking the four bottles. I will start my lists now

Done4today

Glad you're back Sweetichick and alive. If you can't make it to meetings, I know you can find some online ones. There are pod casts and taped speaker meetings that you can download. They helped me get through a lot of late nights, working in towns with just one or two meetings a week, etc. Going to any lengths means just that literally sometimes.

sweetichick

Thanks dfg another good idea to get through the day. Going to any lengths it has to be now.

PhoenixJ

SCh- stay safe

sweetichick

I could barely walk to the shop next door to get smokes. So worried about what permanent damage I have done. I was told by the doc never to drink again. Hope I can get some sleep tonight

sweetichick

I'm supposed to see neurologist but haven't been back to the doc.

PhoenixJ

SCh- your health is the foundation for a sober life. Please go and see your doctor. I speak from my own experiences.
PJ

sweetichick

Ok I will tomorrow Pj

sweetichick

Ok I will tomorrow Pj

PhoenixJ

Good one SWCH, keep us posted. If it helps- if I decide to do something- announcing it to the world helps me motivate, plus I get to do the 'look at how well behaved today I was world!' bit after.
Keep posting. Do not drink. PJ

soberclover

Don't ever give up!

sweetichick

I feel terrible about my friends but one expected me to be a free carer to another friend while she was away. I tried the first day but she had gone no contact while away.. I only sent one message to her about what washappening. And her friend was ringing and making demands on me all day. definitely not conducive to sobriety. Sobriety has to come first. It makes me feel like drinking just thinking how dreadful it all was

PhoenixJ

SWCH- your sobriety has to come first. Are you up to caring for another while working out how to properly care for yourself? Not a judgement, a question.