kgr103110

It happened slowly... thought I could handle it.

Couldn't.

I don't even really want to post... just needed to say it. Hold myself accountable.

I feel like such a failure.

HopeandFaith1

Pick yourself up and keep moving forward my friend. You are in good company here.

Plure

Yeah, don't feel like a failure, just pick up and keep going. Give yourself a little reflection (5-10 mins max) to see where you might've tripped up but do not dwell on it.

For me when I dwell too much on setbacks it really doesn't help anything; in fact it hinders forward progress.

Hang in there!

ScottFromWI

Welcome back KGR. Glad you decided to post. You are in a place that's not good, but most of us have been there so we get it. What can we do to help?

gregknight

An ardent prayer, a hug, and my best wishes for you. Stop drinking, move on. It sucks but you have to do it.

I've been there more times than I want to remember.

uncorked

You're not a failure, stop shaming yourself! You were able to get and stay sober -- that's quite an accomplishment in and of itself. Many people relapse during their journey -- it doesn't mean they failed. You know what to do. hugs

August252015

Glad you made it back.

Soberwolf

Glad your back with us

january161992

the building blocks of a sober member in recovery one day at a time

kgr103110

Thanks everyone. Feels good to be back. The power of denial is incredible lol

I think I need a new approach - perhaps AA or another program.

capricallia

Hey kgr I'm just back too after a relapse, good to see you.

Failure is not trying again, you have not failed.. Dust yourself off and start again with a bit more wisdom behind you. A new approach isn't a bad idea, I'm facing the same situation.

biminiblue

Let's just call this the last experiment, what do you say?

Onward.

Steely

You're in good company kgr. No failures here, just people trying to get well.

ScottFromWI

I'm glad to hear you are considering alternatives....keep an open mind, you never know what you will find until you try things.

Zebra1275

Glad you made it back.

It took the combination of AA and this website to help me get, and more importantly, stay sober.

dwtbd

As soon as I stopped 'believing' in relapses , I was in a proper mindset to Quit.

I had stopped drinking and relapsed many times because I believed 'relapse' was a thing that happened or something I let happen. When I realized it was a specter created by my AV , when I realized it was a lie that a thing or state could sneak up on me and 'get me', I was in the proper mindset to quit , never pick up again.

I decided I will never drink again and I will never change my mind. I get to make that call, you do too. Quit full stop. People who don't drink, don't relapse. ( the only thing that will argue with this mindset is AV and IT Lies)
Rootin for ya

Dee74

Welcome back KGR

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FreeOwl

KGR.... welcome back.

You can do this.

Just choose sobriety. Right now.

Then act in honor of that choice all day Today.

We will deal with ideas like 'tomorrow' and 'forever' when they get here.

SoCalDude

Glad you're here KGR, you came to the right place.

When I stopped kicking myself about things I couldn't change in the past, even yesterday, it made 'just do it for today' so much easier.

PhoenixJ

Keep
- on posting
- on trying
- on sharing
- on learning
- on growing
- on believing in yourself.
Prayers . PJ