hugbear

Hello everone, long time lurker but never had the courage to post until today.

My problem is binging. I do not have an off switch when I have that first drink. Didn't intend to get wasted last night but one glass turned into a whole bottle. Carried on after my partner went to bed. Threw up and slept on sofa. Feel horrendous today.

I don't know why I allow myself to get in that state and I feel really sad and ashamed. I need to make a change so today is my Day 1 and I am hoping to make the best of a new life without alcohol.

Sending hugs to you all.

Ooona

Congratulations on your choice to stop poisoning your body!! I could have wrote your post when I first got here too and I know you're feeling sad and ashamed but soon you're going to be feeling SO much better! Promise!

fgo

Welcome Hugbear,
Been there. This is a great community for support.
Great day to start a new you. A great place to start, maybe join the September newcomers class. It has turned out to be a godsend for me staying sober..

Soberwolf

Welcome HugBear nice to meet you

Anna

Welcome Hugbear,

I'm glad you have taken the step to post here and recognize that you need to stop drinking. We do understand how hard this is.

hugbear

Thanks for your kind words Oona. I have been poisoning my body and soul for too many years now as a way of overcoming massive self confidence issues but it's only getting worse.

Ive always been a heavy drinker when I am drinking and then go into complete denial that I have a problem by stopping for weeks at a time.

I'm so sad that I let myself down repeatedly. I want to be able to embrace life and live it to the full. 20 years of on/off binge drinking is too much.

I don't have a plan yet. Just to be here and post. I don't have the courage to do AA as I don't want to see people I know.

Bird615

Welcome to SR, hugbear!

Elicia08

Welcome hugbear! Glad you are here!

hugbear

Thanks finally, soberwolf and Anna.

It's so heartwarming to have your support especially when I feel so low.

I will check out the September thread.

Thanks for posting... x

PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum Hugbear!!

Dee74

Hi and welcome to the posting side of things hugbear

I don't think it's ever too late to change - I've done more in the last 9 years sober than I did in the previous 20, drunk...

I started as a binger and ended up an all day everyday drinker, but with the help of the community I was able to turn things around.

I know we can help you do the same

ps
with AA - if you saw people there you knew wouldn't they be there for the same reason as you?


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Hevyn

It's great to meet you, hugbear.

I was the same as you - never knew where that first drink might take me. In the end, it led me to danger and misery. It feels wonderful to be free. Glad to have you with us. You can do this.

gettingsmarter

Hi hugbear