48hrs Sober
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48hrs Sober
I've never been one to drink on a daily basis, I believe this stems from the intense heartburn that it leave me, in sayinf this I've always been one to binge on an almost weekly basis.
I'm 25 now and drinking has always played a massive part of my life. I remember when I started drinking heavily, I was 16, my friends always had girlfriends but I was the quiet, reserved, shy one. When I started drinking that all changed. A memory that's always stuck in my mind was my best mate saying to me "You're so good with women when you're drunk, we should keep you drunk" this led to my social situations always involving alcohol.
It was until years later the blackout started. The first one wasn't too bad, I walked a long way home and just thought I'd had too much to drink and tried to avoid it after that.
About a year later I blacked out in Mexico on a trip to Cancun, I vaguely remember punching a random guy, being arrested and paying the local police off. I have no idea with how much but I ended up losing over $2000 that night alone. I also refused to leave my hotel room the rest of the trip.
That was many years ago and I'd never thought of a life without alcohol but now I can't think of how I could have a functioning one with it.
I plan to write all my terrible stories down on this post, I believe it will be a sobering and confronting realisation and hopefully it helps others as well as myself realise how damaging a decades worth of partying through late teens and early to mid 20s can be.
I'm 25 now and drinking has always played a massive part of my life. I remember when I started drinking heavily, I was 16, my friends always had girlfriends but I was the quiet, reserved, shy one. When I started drinking that all changed. A memory that's always stuck in my mind was my best mate saying to me "You're so good with women when you're drunk, we should keep you drunk" this led to my social situations always involving alcohol.
It was until years later the blackout started. The first one wasn't too bad, I walked a long way home and just thought I'd had too much to drink and tried to avoid it after that.
About a year later I blacked out in Mexico on a trip to Cancun, I vaguely remember punching a random guy, being arrested and paying the local police off. I have no idea with how much but I ended up losing over $2000 that night alone. I also refused to leave my hotel room the rest of the trip.
That was many years ago and I'd never thought of a life without alcohol but now I can't think of how I could have a functioning one with it.
I plan to write all my terrible stories down on this post, I believe it will be a sobering and confronting realisation and hopefully it helps others as well as myself realise how damaging a decades worth of partying through late teens and early to mid 20s can be.
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Welcome to SR! Tons of good stories to read here, all posted by good people who know exactly how you're feeling. And this thread can be all yours if you keep posting on it! I look forward to knowing you better, and wish you the best--Arp
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Welcome to SR and congratulations on starting your sobriety journey at 25 years of age. Keep posting your stories and keep reading other's stories...some span decades!! Keep working your plan so that doesn't become your story.
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I'm glad you posted. And, it's normal to feel shame and guilt at this point. It's hard but you can get through it. And, blackouts are very scary. I began to have them toward the end of my drinking days and I will never forget how frightening they were. And, try to not be overwhelmed thinking about a life without alcohol. Take a look around here and you will find that many of us have embraced life without alcohol.
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Its likely that a large part of your social circle will have to change so be prepared for that. Your life will improve tremendously being sober. You said you are just learning about sobriety. Just a suggestion, but learn everything you can, and use what works for you.
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So it's around 4 days sober now, getting more and more nervous the closer the weekend comes around. I lived for the nights out and have never really been one for having hobbies.
I need to get my studies into gear ASAP to give me something productive to do outside of work. July cannot come around fast enough!
I need to get my studies into gear ASAP to give me something productive to do outside of work. July cannot come around fast enough!
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Sobriety is a wholesale lifestyle change, and at first you might think it "sucks". Especially if you are young, but you just have to trust the thousands of members here that it doesn't suck in the long run. You can do it man.
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I don't really have plans this weekend, I don't really know what sober people do on weekend, like do I mow the lawn or clean?
First night off work, essentially my Friday, I feel so alone. The house is eerily quiet and I don't know what to do, I dont even usually drink regularly but now I'm not all it seems to have increased the desire in my mind tenfold.
First night off work, essentially my Friday, I feel so alone. The house is eerily quiet and I don't know what to do, I dont even usually drink regularly but now I'm not all it seems to have increased the desire in my mind tenfold.
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If you can find AA or other support meetings to attend it will help alot. Read a good book...read posts here on SR...write down a plan for moments of cravings...play video games...anything you really enjoy doing that does not involve drinking. It may feel unproductive, but as long as you are not drinking you are accomplishing so much!!
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