Thoughts of the day
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Thoughts of the day
I wish he knew how much it hurt.... To watch him high everyday. I wish he knew how much I died a little inside everytime i saw him walk through the door; eyes pinned, red, and looking sicker and sicker. I wish he knew how much it hurt to lie to my friends and family, and get through my days with a smile on my face knowing my fiancé was essentially gone. While I know that addiction is a beast and a real SOB I wish for one second I could see the real him again and have him tell me everything is going to be okay. I guess it's like wishing you had one more day with a loved one that's passed away.
The scariest thing about loving my opiate addicted fiance is knowing that he may never get better. Knowing that one day I might have to bury him or walk out of his life. I have stopped holding on to fate and prayer and hope, I know now that he must choose to get better or he never will. My prayers fall on deaf ears and sometimes I just want to run down the road screaming because I am so completely devastated over the constant lies and knowing that every day will be just like today until.............????
The scariest thing about loving my opiate addicted fiance is knowing that he may never get better. Knowing that one day I might have to bury him or walk out of his life. I have stopped holding on to fate and prayer and hope, I know now that he must choose to get better or he never will. My prayers fall on deaf ears and sometimes I just want to run down the road screaming because I am so completely devastated over the constant lies and knowing that every day will be just like today until.............????
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Join Date: Oct 2015
Location: Oklahoma
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Wow. You just summed up my situation and feelings perfectly! I wish I knew what to say to make it better, but I don't. I just joined, but it's so nice to know other people understand what I'm going through.
Sending hugs and prayers your way.
Sending hugs and prayers your way.
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