48 Hrs Sober in 25 minutes
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48 Hrs Sober in 25 minutes
Well my first night that I made it through was tough, but manageable with some anxiety relief. The next two days went really well with very little anxiety, so medicine was not needed. Today was a little more stressful at work, but I took no medicine. This evening, home alone on a Friday night when I would absolutely be drinking and more than typical because it's the weekend. Tension was a little concerning, so I did take a half pill to soften that. As I noted, I plan to get away from the pills as quickly as possible. Going through a week or so and learning what to expect will help.
I have AA at 7AM tomorrow. And daily, I have the following prayer and reminder notes to reference quickly from my Smart phone:
"God, I offer myself to You to build with me and do with me what You will. Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Your will. Take away my difficulties that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Your power, Your Love, and Your way of life. May I do Your will always."
Fact: The feeling is so shortlived
- it's ridiculously short lived.
- it is NOT worth it.
Fact: Hours after are totally wasted.
Fact: It controls your mind.
- daily it can create tension
- daily it can cause agitation
- daily it can impact my relationships
- daily it IS in control
Fact: It is not a right, it is NOT necessary.
Fact: I can not live Gods word with it.
Fact: My wife was right.
So, I wanted to recall those things that were in my mind that made me decide to quit. Or I would soon forget. Age does that to you. I can reference this when reading my morning prayer.
To note, I have been searching out God for 10 years. Regular church attendence and bible school. Reading the Bible. I can say that I absolutely believe what is written and it makes sense. A skeptical guy myself, I removed my doubt through this search. What I had not been able to do was feel like I had the ability to hear God, nor did I see he was impacting my life directly.
Last week as I laid down to bed, I was really down, near breakdown about how I wanted to end my drinking because of how I had come to feel about it. I cried and I prayed to God to help me. I didn't hear anything that night. The next day thinking about my concern, I came to an unbelievable perspective that is completely contrary to my life long perspective. I have always been protective of my right to drink. Seriously. On that day my mind clearly let go and I said I don't need alchohol. I don't need it ever. Wow. I breathed easier already.
Not only that, I immediately found and arranged for a Phsycologist and also followed that with setting up a doctors appointment.
I can tell, that was not me. That is not what I would have done. Yes, for the first time in my life, I had God personally lead me. That feels good. And what's funny is I didn't realize it until after I had done that all. The Phsycologist even asked about my religion and I shared that I want to but had not yet communicated with God. I laugh now.
Thanks to all for your support and feedback. I know it is four short days and there will be trials ahead. I try to prepare in advance for that and my notes and prayer on my phone is one way. I would love other ideas from the group on success tactics.
I have AA at 7AM tomorrow. And daily, I have the following prayer and reminder notes to reference quickly from my Smart phone:
"God, I offer myself to You to build with me and do with me what You will. Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Your will. Take away my difficulties that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Your power, Your Love, and Your way of life. May I do Your will always."
Fact: The feeling is so shortlived
- it's ridiculously short lived.
- it is NOT worth it.
Fact: Hours after are totally wasted.
Fact: It controls your mind.
- daily it can create tension
- daily it can cause agitation
- daily it can impact my relationships
- daily it IS in control
Fact: It is not a right, it is NOT necessary.
Fact: I can not live Gods word with it.
Fact: My wife was right.
So, I wanted to recall those things that were in my mind that made me decide to quit. Or I would soon forget. Age does that to you. I can reference this when reading my morning prayer.
To note, I have been searching out God for 10 years. Regular church attendence and bible school. Reading the Bible. I can say that I absolutely believe what is written and it makes sense. A skeptical guy myself, I removed my doubt through this search. What I had not been able to do was feel like I had the ability to hear God, nor did I see he was impacting my life directly.
Last week as I laid down to bed, I was really down, near breakdown about how I wanted to end my drinking because of how I had come to feel about it. I cried and I prayed to God to help me. I didn't hear anything that night. The next day thinking about my concern, I came to an unbelievable perspective that is completely contrary to my life long perspective. I have always been protective of my right to drink. Seriously. On that day my mind clearly let go and I said I don't need alchohol. I don't need it ever. Wow. I breathed easier already.
Not only that, I immediately found and arranged for a Phsycologist and also followed that with setting up a doctors appointment.
I can tell, that was not me. That is not what I would have done. Yes, for the first time in my life, I had God personally lead me. That feels good. And what's funny is I didn't realize it until after I had done that all. The Phsycologist even asked about my religion and I shared that I want to but had not yet communicated with God. I laugh now.
Thanks to all for your support and feedback. I know it is four short days and there will be trials ahead. I try to prepare in advance for that and my notes and prayer on my phone is one way. I would love other ideas from the group on success tactics.
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MyNewStart- Sounds like you're doing a lot of really good things. I'm glad to hear you're seeking professional help. Therapy is a blessing. Find ways to add to your plan like volunteering your time, taking up new hobbies, and find a physical activity you enjoy - it can really help you feel better. I wish you the best on your journey.
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Headed toward day 5 and feeling great. 3hrs this morning at AA. It was a planned book reading at 7AM with about 10 of us. The group turned it into a starter discussion...going around the room with stories of their struggles. A fantastic group of people. Fun and happy people. I then stayed to join a "Topic" class. That group had to be 20 or more. The topic of discussion was how we can be selfish and self centered and what that does to us. Very interesting conversation.
I did meet a temporary sponsor and we will talk later today.
OnTheRoad, thanks for your suggestion. I went to the gym after AA and I do have a wonderful hobby already. Drinking has taken me away from that and I look forward to getting back after it.
I did meet a temporary sponsor and we will talk later today.
OnTheRoad, thanks for your suggestion. I went to the gym after AA and I do have a wonderful hobby already. Drinking has taken me away from that and I look forward to getting back after it.
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