Thatdeliveryguy

Yep my friend Dee was right, I am drunk yes I started outpatient yesterday.

I am bingeing right now, see stupid considering I started treatment yesterday doesn't, I am a dumb guy. I try to deceive, I am riding coaster the all on my own.

You might have read my past post, and think me a liar and a manipulator, all true. forget it all, I have mental problems the doc are right I am crazy, you know they told me I should be in an institution right.

I won't ever be locked up, I might hear things that don't exist, but I am not crazy...... They can't and won't lock me up, I can't be locked up, nobody locks me UP, Nobody is crazy nobody deserves to be mistreated because of mental illness

Come and get me, lock me up, but I am cogent, I know whats happening, I am failure, but nobody should take me

Thatdeliveryguy

I guess they will come and get me, and lock me up,and I will have no say.

ScottFromWI

Not really sure what to say other than that you have known for months that Inpatient treatment is what you need TDG. Hope you can take the initiative to seek it before it is too late.

Thatdeliveryguy

I don't know that I can be " saved" I don't know that there is an answer. What ever

Mrrryah1

Why not try something you haven't tried before?

Like inpatient?

Anna

TDG, come back when you are sober and you feel better.

suki44883

You had your say when you decided to drink. It is obvious you are unable to quit drinking unless you are under supervision 24/7 for quite a long time.

You either want it badly enough, Jeremy, or you don't. So far, it doesn't sound like you do.

ScottFromWI

That's a distinct possibility. You have had many, many chances to have "say" in your life for months now, probably years. But you have summarily dismissed or refused nearly every single one.

Right or Wrong, the society we live in here in the USA has a legal obligation to protect people from themselves, as well as protect others from us. So that may be the path you end up taking before you get better.

Or, you could call someone right now and get into an inpatient treatment program voluntarily.

You still have choices.

Ultramarathoner

I continue to wish you the courage to allow yourself to heal.

Soberpotamus

Admitting yourself to inpatient isn't being "locked up" by "them." It would be an act of faith and courage on your part. It would be Jeremy asserting himself.

Lenina

TDG, your problem isn't that you're crazy, you're an untreated alcoholic who"s letting self will run riot. I hate to be quoting Big Book stuff here, but it's true. You have some complications many of us do with concurrent chemical imbalances creating mental illness.

You are conscious enough to know this. You know you need inpatient help but the disease of alcoholism continues to play you like a violin. The disease of alcoholism has only one purpose and that is to sustain itself, even if that means killing its host. You. Me.

So, quit dancing to the tune of our disease, go inpatient, make a commitment to complete at least a 90 day program and get yourself together. You're smart and lovable. You have much to offer your family and the world when you're sober.

So, go take care of business, OK? Or you're gonna die.

Love from Lenina

chickippo

I'll say it again - i have various psychiatric diagnoses. i lost my daughter to her father 18 months ago. i had a fantastic job and travelled the world and now i stay at home most days.

in 11 days i will have been sober for a year. i have done it living on my own, with nobody to see if i drank or not.

my life is transformed. i still struggle with my mental health. but my daughter has been over on 5 separate days during her school break, and last night she stayed over for the first time since i moved here 15 months ago.

it IS all worth it in the end. i am doing it, one day at a time. you can too, if you put away your ego and really knuckle down.

you CAN. but will you?

be well.

chickippo

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thomas11

tdg, you are drunk, not crazy, sorry it happened on your first day of outpatient. You can do it man.

sleepie

It's time to go on "automatic" and don't think, just follow doctor's orders.