Just want to say thank you
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Just want to say thank you
I have had a couple gatorades, water, and a small meal. I fell down this weekend, but I got back up, I will continue to try gaining complete sobriety. I am not a perfect person, but I am trying. And I will continue to try.
Good morning Thomas, glad you are back. Perhaps it's not that you aren't trying hard enough, but that you aren't trying the right things? Can you think of what you might do differently today?
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well for starters, I won't drink. that's #1 priority right now. There is still booze in the house, but I won't drink it.
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Thanks, I have weird philosophy, I like having some booze in the house because it tests my willpower. I used to be hooked on Ambien, and I had to stop taking it because I became dependent on it. I still have 5 ambien tablets in the medicine cabinet, but I won't touch them. They are there to test my strength. so for what its worth....
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You guys are lifesavers. Seriously, no one cares about me as much as you guys do. Maybe that's why I abuse myself. Again, I apologize for continually failing, but I have to keep trying. I HAVE TO KEEP TRYING.
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Your willpower was tested and look what happens.....! I get it though . I went into a bar yesterday, one I would frequent, and had a coke. Not best idea but I wanted to see if I could . It may not work next time especially as I'm new to recovery
i don't know how many times i 'fell down'....it was very,very many.
but i kept on.....and i kept on...and i kept on
today i have about 7 weeks, not a lot in the grand scheme, but a miracle for me....it is unspeakably wonderful....i cannot explain the little flame that has come to burn within me from being sober....it is my own personal private sanctuary, my own special little connection to life, to who i am, and to my future...
don't ever give up, you can have your sobriety too. i will be pulling for you...
hugs, Trish
but i kept on.....and i kept on...and i kept on
today i have about 7 weeks, not a lot in the grand scheme, but a miracle for me....it is unspeakably wonderful....i cannot explain the little flame that has come to burn within me from being sober....it is my own personal private sanctuary, my own special little connection to life, to who i am, and to my future...
don't ever give up, you can have your sobriety too. i will be pulling for you...
hugs, Trish
WOOHOOO! I am glad to see you made it back. You paid with another night of being stuck drinking so I hope you can strengthen your plan in the places you need.
Whhhhaaaattt??? That is a bad idea Jeff. The fact that you were able to do that with Ambien does not necessarily mean it is the right call with alcohol. Maybe it is just because I would still be drinking if I kept whiskey in the house that I feel that way. This isn't a test of wills type of thing. It is more of a letting it go thing. It's over and you can walk away (more like crawl at first) but you don't have to keep this up if you don't want.
Thanks, I have weird philosophy, I like having some booze in the house because it tests my willpower. I used to be hooked on Ambien, and I had to stop taking it because I became dependent on it. I still have 5 ambien tablets in the medicine cabinet, but I won't touch them. They are there to test my strength. so for what its worth....
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