I messed up
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I messed up
Exactly on my 6 month mark, I failed. Nothing tragic and no particular reason. My plan is good, I was just overwhelmed and in the company of an individual who was able to make me feel like it wouldn't be a bad idea to "let loose". I'm disappointed but I don't want to dwell on it. Picking up and moving on. Just wanted hold myself accountable and share with you guys. Please pray for me. Day 1.
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I'm sorry that happened and I'm glad you're ready to start over again. You had 6 months sober so you know you can do it again. I do think it's important to know why it happened so you can make sure it doesn't happen again. Our plans need to evolve.
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You're right Anna, I think the person that I was with will always be a trigger. It's an ex, all we did was drink and now that I no longer drink im always uncomfortable around him sober. I know he's not good for my sobriety but sometimes we think we are smarter than our addiction. 
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I'm sorry to hear that F&F, but I know you're committed to this sobriety thing, which can take a while to get the hang of. 
I had to discontinue some relationships I had that were fueled or facilitated by drinking. I tried to restructure them, but it wasn't going to work. In some way, without the drink, there was nothing there that I could safely pursue. It's painful, but that's the way it is.
I had to discontinue some relationships I had that were fueled or facilitated by drinking. I tried to restructure them, but it wasn't going to work. In some way, without the drink, there was nothing there that I could safely pursue. It's painful, but that's the way it is.
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F&F....you are not starting over. You are simply picking up from where you left off. All of the tools and skills you learned over those 6 months do not disappear because of a lapse. Your record is 179-1 as far as sober days go. To me, that's a success! Keep going!
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Thanks everyone. And I agree courage, we have nothing in common sober and I typically avoid interactions with him. I think I will approach my sobriety this time by protecting myself from harmful people. In the past my approach has been more of me protecting people from myself.
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Being responsible for my own recovery
with the help of a recovery program is
very important to me.
After learning about my addiction to
alcohol, accepting that I will and would
never drinking successfully in this life
because I tried so many time to control
it and failed so many times, then I was
able to move forward each day without
alcohol.
Over the years listening to many who
have gotten sober to only return out
to test the waters, would return to let
me know that alcohol is still alive and
still kicking azz big time.
To see and hear this for 24 yrs now,
then I am totally convienced that I
wont be returning to a poisonous
substance that tried to rob me of
my life.
Dust yourself off and begin learning
all you can about addiction and its
affects on your own mind, body and
soul, then incorporate a program of
recovery to guide you along in your
journey in recovery.
with the help of a recovery program is
very important to me.
After learning about my addiction to
alcohol, accepting that I will and would
never drinking successfully in this life
because I tried so many time to control
it and failed so many times, then I was
able to move forward each day without
alcohol.
Over the years listening to many who
have gotten sober to only return out
to test the waters, would return to let
me know that alcohol is still alive and
still kicking azz big time.
To see and hear this for 24 yrs now,
then I am totally convienced that I
wont be returning to a poisonous
substance that tried to rob me of
my life.
Dust yourself off and begin learning
all you can about addiction and its
affects on your own mind, body and
soul, then incorporate a program of
recovery to guide you along in your
journey in recovery.
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Those 6 months aren't gone and you're doing a tough thing by getting right back on track. Look at the experience & try to figure out how to strengthen the defense against the first drink. Great job on the 6 months & getting right back to your commitment to sobriety
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Honesty is good. Six months is about 180 days, so you were sober 179 out of 180. That's a pretty good percentage. It's not 100%, but it's a good chunk of time. If you've learned something, all the better, now you now what to avoid in the future.
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