Worst blackout of my life
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Mar 2015
Posts: 18
Worst blackout of my life
Just awoken from the worst blackout of my life
The last thing I remember was doing some cocaine (which I would never do / ever buy if I was sober)
I'm informed someone I know saw me doing it. I hope they don't tell anyone I love.
The worry of thinking did I say this / do that is absolutely killing me inside.
The regret of possibly saying awful things to people makes me feel so awful.
I daren't ever show my face again.
One positive is its confirmed my worst fears that I do have a problem. I've browsed this forum for nearly a year and have always told myself that it wasn't a problem and I'm just young.
At only 20 years old I feel disgusted in myself.
This might be one very long hangover
The last thing I remember was doing some cocaine (which I would never do / ever buy if I was sober)
I'm informed someone I know saw me doing it. I hope they don't tell anyone I love.
The worry of thinking did I say this / do that is absolutely killing me inside.
The regret of possibly saying awful things to people makes me feel so awful.
I daren't ever show my face again.
One positive is its confirmed my worst fears that I do have a problem. I've browsed this forum for nearly a year and have always told myself that it wasn't a problem and I'm just young.
At only 20 years old I feel disgusted in myself.
This might be one very long hangover
Canine Welfare Advocate
Join Date: Sep 2010
Location: Norfolk, VA
Posts: 10,962
Welcome to SR.
That means you have a couple days to formulate a sobriety plan before you forget how you feel and start convincing yourself that you don't have a problem, that all you have to do is control your drinking.
I was younger than you when I drank myself into alcohol poisoning, vomited in my sleep and my roommate had to save me from choking, then awakening to the worst hangover in my life.
Any sensible person would have never drank again.
Being alcoholic, I drank 35 more years.
Originally Posted by OnlyGetBetter 
This might be one very long hangover.
I was younger than you when I drank myself into alcohol poisoning, vomited in my sleep and my roommate had to save me from choking, then awakening to the worst hangover in my life.
Any sensible person would have never drank again.
Being alcoholic, I drank 35 more years.
Administrator
Join Date: Aug 2003
Location: Dancing in the Light
Posts: 61,518
Blackouts are the absolute scariest thing. I had several of those in my last drinking days and I've never forgotten. It's awful that a part of your life is an unknown to you.
I'm glad you posted and that you are ready to change your life.
I'm glad you posted and that you are ready to change your life.
Member
Join Date: Mar 2015
Posts: 105
they are horrible experiences, really hellish. I feel for you. I wish you well in your journey and your choices. You have A LOT of life ahead and seem to have realised some important things about yourself at a young age. You have quite an opportunity. Very best wishes,
chordcowboy
chordcowboy
Member
Join Date: Sep 2014
Location: Ga
Posts: 1,511
Welcome! So I'm 31 and I have spent the last 10 years telling myselft that I am just young and want to enjoy good times with friends. It really only gets worse though. Glad you are ready to join us. You don't have to feel this awful again. 
Administrator
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,456
Welcome OnlyGetBetter
You really can make this your turning point if you want to - I hope you'll decide to stick around and gain from the support and encouragement here. and in our substance abuse forum too
D
You really can make this your turning point if you want to - I hope you'll decide to stick around and gain from the support and encouragement here. and in our substance abuse forum too
D
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
