I want out of here!
I want out of here!
I just want to go back, stay away from all of this here. I want to go back to the life I had down there for that one week. Being away felt so good it almost hurts to be here. What the hell do I have here? A large amount of bad memories. Thats for sure. Part of me wants to start over again, in a new place, new discoveries. Where nobody knows me but my name. Is that bad to feel that way?
Been another one of those days.....
Damn how I miss it there.
Big Hugs!
Been another one of those days.....
Damn how I miss it there.
Big Hugs!
Boy, can I relate to what you're going through. I often live inside my head remembering when I had my own little apartment. It was a time when I came home and it was only me and my cat I had to take care of. I loved the sense of freedom of cooking dinner when I felt like it or watching whatever I wanted on t.v. It was a financial struggle, but I didn't have to listen to some ranting alcoholic's abuse.
If there's any way you can leave your current situation, go for it. Take a risk. Life is very, very short and we all owe it to ourselves to lead it in a way that will bring us the most satisfaction and fulfillment.
If there's any way you can leave your current situation, go for it. Take a risk. Life is very, very short and we all owe it to ourselves to lead it in a way that will bring us the most satisfaction and fulfillment.
Queen of one liners
Join Date: Jan 2003
Location: walking beside you! Not in front of you.
Posts: 658
Hi bonbon, I've missed you and the dancing elephant.
Your post sounds just like I used to feel when I would come back home from a really good al-anon round-up or conference. Sometimes it is so hard to stay in reality , isn't it? I wanted the "party" to go on forever. I know today that moving to where the "party" was just a geograhific on my part. I also know today I take me with everywhere I go. So here I plant myself, work on my recovery, and practice the principals of al-anon to the best of my abilities.
I still dream of the "great move" but not nearly as often as I used to. I know for me today that I can "let it begin with me" where ever I am.
Sending Happy thoughts your way.
Your post sounds just like I used to feel when I would come back home from a really good al-anon round-up or conference. Sometimes it is so hard to stay in reality , isn't it? I wanted the "party" to go on forever. I know today that moving to where the "party" was just a geograhific on my part. I also know today I take me with everywhere I go. So here I plant myself, work on my recovery, and practice the principals of al-anon to the best of my abilities.
I still dream of the "great move" but not nearly as often as I used to. I know for me today that I can "let it begin with me" where ever I am.
Sending Happy thoughts your way.
I miss it too
Originally Posted by prodigal
Boy, can I relate to what you're going through. I often live inside my head remembering when I had my own little apartment. It was a time when I came home and it was only me and my cat I had to take care of. I loved the sense of freedom of cooking dinner when I felt like it or watching whatever I wanted on t.v. It was a financial struggle, but I didn't have to listen to some ranting alcoholic's abuse.
If there's any way you can leave your current situation, go for it. Take a risk. Life is very, very short and we all owe it to ourselves to lead it in a way that will bring us the most satisfaction and fulfillment.
If there's any way you can leave your current situation, go for it. Take a risk. Life is very, very short and we all owe it to ourselves to lead it in a way that will bring us the most satisfaction and fulfillment.
Dancing To My Own Beat
Join Date: Oct 2003
Location: I don't know what kind of state I'm in
Posts: 1,326
bonbon,
I wish sometimes that life was always good, but life can be good most of the time if we chose to work at it. No matter where we go, we take us with us, so it is important to find out what is at the heart of our unhappiness, and try to heal that before we move on. The memory of your beautiful vacation will always be with you, and maybe you can do it on a more regular basis. Life is always going to have challenges and obstacles. We are learning to navigate it better. Hugs, Magic
I wish sometimes that life was always good, but life can be good most of the time if we chose to work at it. No matter where we go, we take us with us, so it is important to find out what is at the heart of our unhappiness, and try to heal that before we move on. The memory of your beautiful vacation will always be with you, and maybe you can do it on a more regular basis. Life is always going to have challenges and obstacles. We are learning to navigate it better. Hugs, Magic
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