7 Days again
7 Days again
So after some struggles post new year I have again made it 7 days. I did it on my own this time, without hospitalization. For better or worse, and perhaps that was a foolish decision but I was not off the wagon very long and I carefully monitored my symptoms during the first four days for anything I should be drastically concerned about.
I drank my way directly out of the best job I'd ever had after New Years; in fact, it was the midnight toast at work with the staff that broke me and started me spiraling. Within a couple of days I'd been drunk for days straight and no-call no showed out of work three days running and lost the job.
After just a week sober, though, my body and mind feel so much better again, my appetite is RAGING (I'm down quite a bit of weight and it's ready to make up for lost time) and I'm ready to tackle this again. I had an interview yesterday at a new job, and was asked to come in for a second interview later today where I'll hopefully net what just might be an even better position for me. (Better location, very busy area in Faneuil Hall in Boston, or thereabouts) and an establishment which isn't as much geared towards alcohol sales and has minimal available. Only some sake and a couple of beers. No glittering bar center stage in the restaurant, no more thirty draft lines and rows and rows of bottles looking at me all shift.
As I put it the other day:
"I screwed a hundred percent of everything up, I've fixed half of it, I'm a quarter of the way to solving the other half, and I'm an eighth of the way to being sure I won't screw a hundred percent of everything up again next time.
But I'm zero percent interested in needing to calculate it again."
Yes, I am ready to do this.
I drank my way directly out of the best job I'd ever had after New Years; in fact, it was the midnight toast at work with the staff that broke me and started me spiraling. Within a couple of days I'd been drunk for days straight and no-call no showed out of work three days running and lost the job.
After just a week sober, though, my body and mind feel so much better again, my appetite is RAGING (I'm down quite a bit of weight and it's ready to make up for lost time) and I'm ready to tackle this again. I had an interview yesterday at a new job, and was asked to come in for a second interview later today where I'll hopefully net what just might be an even better position for me. (Better location, very busy area in Faneuil Hall in Boston, or thereabouts) and an establishment which isn't as much geared towards alcohol sales and has minimal available. Only some sake and a couple of beers. No glittering bar center stage in the restaurant, no more thirty draft lines and rows and rows of bottles looking at me all shift.
As I put it the other day:
"I screwed a hundred percent of everything up, I've fixed half of it, I'm a quarter of the way to solving the other half, and I'm an eighth of the way to being sure I won't screw a hundred percent of everything up again next time.
But I'm zero percent interested in needing to calculate it again."
Yes, I am ready to do this.
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