TryTryAgain

Things we're going quite well but now I am sitting in a doctor's waiting room for an appointment with a specialist regarding some atypical cells. I got this scary news yesterday and got right in for today. But yesterday I did not feel at all like drinking. Today is a different story. My AV is exploiting the fact that I am in uncharted waters right now.

Thinking I can have maybe a Bloody Mary after the appointment instead of beer so I can hide it better before I see my husband. I know how dumb this sounds and seeing the words is helpful. Confirms that the very last thing that will help after this appointment is a drink.

Thanks for listening.

ericwilson

You really did good 'blocking the AV'...stay in tune with your body and care for it as if it were your own child. I would never give my son alcohol to 'help' him, then why do I do it to myself? Keep up the attitude, press on and have some tea-if that helps. Great job!

Eric

ericwilson

You really did good 'blocking the AV'...stay in tune with your body and care for it as if it were your own child. I would never give my son alcohol to 'help' him, then why do I do it to myself? Keep up the attitude, press on and have some tea-if that helps. Great job!

Eric

BernieE

Your mind and body will make it through those uncharted waters much better sober. Be good to yourself, you deserve it.

SoberLeigh

Stay close to us, TTA; your AV is exploiting your vulnerabilities. Give it the consideration it deserves and kick it to the curb.

jryan19982

Let us know how it goes. We are all here for you.

Where are the atypical cells?

Soberwolf

Hang in there Tryagain

Kick the AV into touch you have us to lean on for support

Good luck let us know how it goes

dblightstream

I agree, i think you are doing tremendously well blocking your AV and disputing it. My AV does the same: always looking for my vulnarabilities to exploit and get out into the wild and drag me with it. Keep strong, you are doing great!

TryTryAgain

Thank you. Told AV to "buzz off" and took the good advice to do something positive and healthy for myself. Stopped at Whole Foods on the way home and indulged in some roasted tomatoes. They are so decadent, yet way better for me than the Bloody Mary I was considering.

My husband will be home within the hour, so I am safe.

To answer jryan's question regarding the location of the atypical cells...they are in an area I will just say is part of my reproductive system. Hope that is not too much information.

Biopsy results come back next Monday.

Thank you all for supporting me and not letting the AV boss me around.

jryan19982

Nope not at all. Of course you didnt have to answer the question if you felt it was too intrusive. My grandmother had that as well. For her it was very curable. I hope you find the same success. But no matter what you find out, please know that your body's immune response is suppressed while drinking and is counter productive when something like this comes up. Stay strong and you will get through this.

I think you did a great job today kicking that AV to the curb and doing something productive and getting a good healthy snack. Sometimes the greatest deterrent for your AV is doing something healthy because it is a complete 180 from what drinking would do. You should feel accomplished for that just in itself. Keep doing things that keeps you moving in a positive direction, even if it is just a small thing that seemingly doesnt matter that much at the time, but they all build on each other and will make a solid foundation for a better lifestyle. A house takes many steps to build much like sobriety. Good luck and we are all here for you.

Dee74

Best wishes for a good result Try - and great going on not drinking - it won't change anything.

D

Altoids

You rock, girl!!! Not only did you kick the AV to the curb, you found some decadent way to reward yourself. I love Whole Foods!!! I get myself a treat there every so often. They have some delicious veggies.

TryTryAgain

Yay! Thank you everyone! We went out to dinner last night (iced tea for me, thank you) and then binged on "Modern Family" on On Demand, and that was a great way to spend the night.

Today I bought a whole chicken (at Safeway this time, I have to economize, haha) and am challenging myself to use every single bit of it except for the bones, so I am working on three recipes. Even making my own breadcrumbs! This is something that would not be happening if I had listened to "the jerk".

So happy and proud to be able to come back here and tell you the good news. And so glad I did not let you (or myself, or family, or friends) down.

Thank you. :-)

TryTryAgain

Hi Everyone,

Update - GREAT NEWS! Just got biopsy results back and the tissue was NORMAL! Whee! Thanks everyone for thinking good thoughts. :-)

As an aside - no cravings to celebrate in a bad way, just want to enjoy this sober life to its fullest.

jryan19982

Great news! I know that must be a relief. Yup no need to celebrate with poison!

jtlgg

Wow in your darkest time, and by posting on here about how you didn't succumb to alcohol, CONGRATS to you and your reproductive organs. Thank you xxx