BeBetterforkids

I started getting anxiety today about all of the things I screwed up when I was younger from drinking. I remember that I was a Maid of Honor in a friend of mines wedding. The night before the bridal shower I got absolutely hammered. I woke up from my phone ringing and it was her , wondering why I wasn't at the shower yet. She called everywhere looking for me. I made up this ridiculous lie that I had bad bronchitis (sounded like I did because of all the cigarettes I smoked) I told her that the medicine had knocked me out and I slept through my alarm. Her family actually felt bad for me and I showed up 2 hours later to the shower. Completely hung over. Puking in my car on the way down to them. This was over 10 years ago, but it makes me sick to think about it. Just felt like sharing that. 6 days today - hope everyone has a great day!

Anna

I think we all have things that we deeply regret doing while we were drinking.

Sometimes forgiving ourselves can be a slow process.

aasharon90

I like many have done quite a few things
in my past during my drinking career. I
also have done things after I got into recovery
too. Realizing that I am not perfect, nor
want to be, but would rather learn from
many of those lessons so that I don't have
to repeat them is the key to success in
recovery.

I was under the influence and made poor
decisions and choices and I eventually
learned from them so that I could live
an honest life.

I learned that the past is over. I cant
change the past, but I can learn from
them. Im not gonna say I will ever do
some of those things in the future, but
I know for sure, I don't plan on doing
them today.

So I take each day not to repeat past
behaviors using many helpful tools in
recovery I learned early on and apply
them in my every day affairs.

Forgiving myself gives me power and
strength to move forward and not repeat
old behaviors today in recovery.

You can too.

Suzieq17

I have done similar things and worse.

You have to forgive yourself of your past behaviors, dedicate yourself to sobriety, and as time goes on you will have new experiences that have positive memories and no hangover.

Soberwolf

Well done on day 6 BBFK thats seriously awesome

I agree with Anna

JT0626

Oh I have done something real similar. I was supposed to be one of the bridesmaids to a friend's wedding. I never made any of the dress fittings because I was hung over. Needless to say I was booted off the wedding party & to this day we are not the same type of friends we used to be - she's just cordial to me now. I messed that up & now have to live with it.

Sulu1

One of my favorite sayings is that you cannot change things that happened yesterday, but today you can choose your path.

Congrats on 6 days.

Fly N Buy

I had a cutlass I sold years back because of the messes made in it over the years

In sobriety, we learn how to deal with our past and not worry about the future. For many of us, we simply look at today. For in reality it's truly all we have.

Yesterday is but a shadow, and tomorrow is never certain. Soon, you'll learn to forgive yourself. We are after all flawed human beings who make mistakes.

Live in today, stay sober - make a plan. By maintaining sobriety each day, we make amends to ourselves and those we love/care about.

headcase1

I did the same thing for our '14 Xmas party.Went out the night before,got plastered,couldn't even look at food the next day. A week later I did the same thing & knew I needed help,so 5 days out of the hospital,here I am!! I am becoming a changed man,somebody with something to live for,not someone with nothing to lose.I love my family!!!

Kaily

Try not to worry, I'm sure you didn't set out to get that drunk and mess up the next day, when we have a problem it just happens, we drink until we black out.
In my case I use to do it often as was very shy, insecure and unsure then suddenly I would be the life and soul, scared this feeling would go I just kept on drinking till bad things happened then wake up the next day feeling even worse about myself causing me to repeat the whole cycle over and over again.

Try and be kind to yourself.

Aiko

HI BeBetterforkids

Water under the mill does not count anymore...
You learned from it and now you have moved on!
Be proud you are 6 days and counting
XO

MissOverIt

Hi BeBetter,
I can relate! I'm early in too and now my mind likes to play all kinds of fun reruns for me! I think it's part of the process and in time it quiets down. We can do this!