6 months sober...
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6 months sober...
Hi all,
Tomorrow (23rd December) marks 180 days of being sober. 6 freaking months, I cant believe it.
On the start of my journey I was depressed, anxious, hated...no, wait despised myself. Drinking, lying about my drinking, worrying about how I could drink, where I would get it from, how to hide it, feeling guilt was my life....it was exausting! Every. Single. Day. I was tired, I really thought I'd given up on myself, I couldnt fight this anymore. This was who I was and what I was to become. I would die a drunk. I tried to get sober so many times, for my family, friends.....I expected sobriety to be handed to me on a lovely shiny silver plate. I couldnt work for it, it was poor me who had the problem....people needed to help me!!!!
Then one day I'd had enough. That was genuinely it. I was tired of fighting to stay drunk!
Its been a hard journey, I craved drink initially, was angry A LOT! Resented people that could drink "normally" and generally tried to think of a million reasons to pick up a drink, but day by day things got better. My family had hope, relationships at first strained improved, I could hold my head high in work and feelings I had of loathing turned to pride for myself.
Everyday is hard, but life is day and night to what it was. I'm the daughter, sister, girlfriend, niece, cousin, sister in law, auntie, friend I should have been. And soon I'll be the mother I hope I will be when my baby arrives in May 15. My miracle from getting sober.
When your an alcoholic life can seem full of despair but it doesnt have to be. It can be hope and love and all the things I've gained in 6 short months.
Please if your new or trying to be sober please give it a chance. Give yourself a chance.#
Wishing everyone well.
L x
Tomorrow (23rd December) marks 180 days of being sober. 6 freaking months, I cant believe it.
On the start of my journey I was depressed, anxious, hated...no, wait despised myself. Drinking, lying about my drinking, worrying about how I could drink, where I would get it from, how to hide it, feeling guilt was my life....it was exausting! Every. Single. Day. I was tired, I really thought I'd given up on myself, I couldnt fight this anymore. This was who I was and what I was to become. I would die a drunk. I tried to get sober so many times, for my family, friends.....I expected sobriety to be handed to me on a lovely shiny silver plate. I couldnt work for it, it was poor me who had the problem....people needed to help me!!!!
Then one day I'd had enough. That was genuinely it. I was tired of fighting to stay drunk!
Its been a hard journey, I craved drink initially, was angry A LOT! Resented people that could drink "normally" and generally tried to think of a million reasons to pick up a drink, but day by day things got better. My family had hope, relationships at first strained improved, I could hold my head high in work and feelings I had of loathing turned to pride for myself.
Everyday is hard, but life is day and night to what it was. I'm the daughter, sister, girlfriend, niece, cousin, sister in law, auntie, friend I should have been. And soon I'll be the mother I hope I will be when my baby arrives in May 15. My miracle from getting sober.
When your an alcoholic life can seem full of despair but it doesnt have to be. It can be hope and love and all the things I've gained in 6 short months.
Please if your new or trying to be sober please give it a chance. Give yourself a chance.#
Wishing everyone well.
L x
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That is fantastic! Congratulations. I am almost sober 1 month but can relate to your journey. I was a horrible person when drunk and I would drink so much. Everything evolved around drinking. On weekends I could start as soon as I was out of bed. I hid my drinking from my partner. I used to drink while he was still sleeping and would be drunk by 9-10am and have to have my first "nap". I have given him a terrible life (together for 25 years) really. I eventually hit rock bottom and decided enough is enough. If I want to live this has to stop. I haven't had a drink since that day. I know it is only a month but it is huge for me. I am changing back to the person I used to be. I am no longer angry, spiteful, depressed etc...I was initially afraid of sobriety now I embrace it. I just hope that I stay on this road that I have chosen and that I have the strength to keep going. This holiday season is the biggest test for me. I will have to take it day by day. I will be so proud when I wake up on January 1 and have not touched a drop op that poison. Merry Christmas to you and a sober and happy New Year!!
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Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: sydney nsw
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That is fantastic! Congratulations. I am almost sober 1 month but can relate to your journey. I was a horrible person when drunk and I would drink so much. Everything evolved around drinking. On weekends I could start as soon as I was out of bed. I hid my drinking from my partner. I used to drink while he was still sleeping and would be drunk by 9-10am and have to have my first "nap". I have given him a terrible life (together for 25 years) really. I eventually hit rock bottom and decided enough is enough. If I want to live this has to stop. I haven't had a drink since that day. I know it is only a month but it is huge for me. I am changing back to the person I used to be. I am no longer angry, spiteful, depressed etc...I was initially afraid of sobriety now I embrace it. I just hope that I stay on this road that I have chosen and that I have the strength to keep going. This holiday season is the biggest test for me. I will have to take it day by day. I will be so proud when I wake up on January 1 and have not touched a drop op that poison. Merry Christmas to you and a sober and happy New Year!!
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