Erratic

On a real low and craving a lot this morning. This is my 20th day sober and a week back to work. This is my day off suppose that's my trigger and why I'm down as I normally drink. Have been having upsetting dreams also since going sober. Not sure what to do with myself. Taken the dogs out went to a friends house and took books. Been shopping. Still nothing is digging me out of this sink feeling
On Thursday I have my psychiatrist will see what she says.
Anyway hope I haven't bored anyone.

Nonsensical

Hang in there Erratic. If you can't find anything else to do, look up these terms on Google:

miswanting

affective forecasting

the focusing illusion

I found them very interesting.

I also found that cooking and eating bacon does wonders for my attitude.

Dee74

I hope seeing the p-doc will help erratic - can you do something nice for yourself today - something that may help lift your spirits?

stay close to SR too

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lighteningbug

Nothing you can say is boring. I hope your appointment helps. Stay strong!

FeelingGreat

Hi Erratic, you did the right thing coming on to SR and telling us. I'm sure you're going to get through this; focus on how pleased your doc will be when you tell him/her.

FreeOwl

Some days, it's just about putting one foot in front of the other, staying sober and making each step count.... Being grateful for each one no matter how tough it feels.

Soberwolf

Try this Erratic http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

or if you just wanna have a chat pm friend

Hang in there

sprout50

I had days like this too. Be kind to yourself today. Watch tv, read a good book, eat junk food.....whatever works for you.

Nuudawn

Now cut that out..ya hear? The first few weeks are a bit of a grind. It gets better..incrementally.

I know that when I'm feeling "down" or struggling....I appreciate the threads of others in same boat (what is that..misery love company or something : ). I avoid the "wahoo" threads like the plague.

We all need to know we are not alone..in anything.

And you are not, Erratic.

Erratic

Thanks everyone xx I went and had some chocolate and read for a while then slept. Guess I will make some soup for dinner. That will keep me going. Thanks again everyone I heed all ur replies. Cxxxx

Anna

I'm glad you're feeling a bit better.

Maybe you could do something nice for someone else today and it might you smile.

Mark1014

Hi Erratic,

The end of week three was one of the tougher times for me too. I was also on a day off. I hope you'll keep checking in as the day goes. Looks like you're on the right track now and I am sincerely rooting for YOU!

SoberLeigh

Early times can be really rough; hope your doctor is able to help you, erratic.

In the meantime, be good to you and lean on us.

Enjoy that soup; they say it is good for the soul.

desypete

i dont know how long it took me before i felt anything like happy for anything in life, but the one thing i did and i stuck at was kept on going to aa meetings, my head would tell me to stay in the flat and not go out so that i could sit in my misery

but i made one promise and that was i would give aa a try for 90 meetings so i did and i do know one thing i did a lot more than 90 meeting in 90 days as i found a freedom from my head in the rooms

i had no one at home for me i was on my own so just getting out with people and people who were glad to see me helped me break that isolation that i believe is one of the hardest things we can face

i love nothing better than shut off from the world and hide away from it all

so its something i have to put in the effort to try to get rid of that way of life and when i do i soon feel better about myself

good luck to you and keep plodding on ; )

Erratic

Thanks to the new replies xx

Soup is on and I'm guzzling coke as if it's out of fashion. My mood is touch and go just now but I will plod on. Lucky me I have my hubby and daughter here I'm sure they will lift my spirit if the Coke doesn't

Funny thing is this morn I picked blue lace Chakra crystal and that helps for me to communicate more and is helping reaching out here. Hugs to everyone xx

sprout50

Glad to hear that your husband and daughter are there with you. Don't know what the weather is like there in Scotland right now but here it is raining and cold. Nice bowl of soup sounds good.

Keep hanging in there. You're doing a good job!

Erratic

It's raining here also. Sitting here watching tv with some coke. My mind is wandering about. Think I will take a shower later and get on pjs and read a book. So hoping tomorrow is a better day.

gypsytears

How about a red root chakra crystal for grounding & centering !

JanieJ

Hang in there, Erratic. x

MythOfSisyphus

You're not boring me, Erratic! I'm stoked to see you have 20 days now. You really should be proud of that, it's quite an accomplishment. I know it's been tough for you this last year and you had a few stumbles. But that's past now. Your AV is probably starting to get desperate and it's trying to trick you into going back to the booze. Don't listen to it, Erratic! Hang in there.

It can be *** challenging *** to figure out to do with the time you used to spend drinking. But it's also an opportunity. When you were drinking there were probably tons of things you wanted to do that required being sober. It just takes the body and mind some time to adjust.

I hope the psychiatrist is of some help. In the mean time keep it up. You're on a roll!