Grimes

well, im back. thinking of a username change.

i sometimes wonder how i still have a job. maybe i dont anymore, second day i took off. alcohol just feels so damn good.

Cecilia44

ID10T: Are your ready to quit?

Grimes

i know its what i want, but its just so hard.

Soberwolf

Hi ID10T

It cant feel that good otherwise you wouldnt want to stop

it is hard but you can do it

keep reading put a plan in place

FreeOwl

I remember when I thought alcohol felt good.

Thing is, it stopped feeling good.

Just got worse and worse.....

EndGameNYC

I dunno...Being told that I have to pack my things in a cardboard box, turn in my keys, and warned that I should never set foot on the property again, both at work and at home, didn't feel very good to me.

Grimes

right now i did 7 weeks 2 years ago. if i could do 3 months, i think i would be happy.

Aellyce

I had these exact same thoughts, too... until I was constantly worried more about how I still had the things and life conditions that I did, but alcohol no longer felt good. Not beyond that first ~hours when I locked myself in my room and loaded myself with booze, over and over. The state you are describing is just a state, I think... it will most likely get less appealing and acceptable. I suggest that you seriously consider quitting before all hell breaks loose. So many stories here on SR, read them and think as long as you are still in a position of changing things relatively safely, because it will not always be that way.

Chrissy58

Change is really scary. I know that I am dealing with change forced upon me. My drug of choice is weed. I know what it is like to buy pot and spend money that should go for bills, rent, or food. To be broke and in debt.

The question I asked myself is, is this the person I want to be, who seems powerless and controlled by their addiction? The answer for me was no. I am day 2 for me.

We can overcome and become the people who we want to be. Responsible and dependable. Someone our families and friends can look up to and admire because we had the courage to make and become the people we can be, if we remain clean.

Good luck.

Barnumb

Maybe a user name change is in order? A fresh start so to speak. something a little less self-inflected and a little more encouraging for your fight.

When you are ready to change, you will know. hopefully it is by choice and not by a rock bottom court order. If you are here, and posting, I think you know the answer. Welcome back to SR!

PurpleKnight

Welcome back!!

Coldfusion

Welcome back! To change your username, send a personal message to Anna, who is an administrator and moderator for this forum.

wheresthefun

Could you clarify the above? Would you be happy with the fact that you made it three months without drinking, which is longer than seven weeks, or do you mean you would just be a happy person, if you could get sober for three months?

Grimes

i would just be happy if i could do 3 months. longer than that i would love but not seeing miracles happen.

Gilmer

Once you get to three months, you're well on your way. Meanwhile, start right now.

wheresthefun

I apologize in advance, but I'm still not sure I'm getting it. By "happy" do you mean "satisfied" that you were able to not drink for three months, or do you mean HAPPY, as in "I really like and am satisfied/content with most aspects of my life, now that I have not had a drink for three months"?

In other words, do you see three months as some kind of magic bullet, if you make it to that mark, life will be good?

least

Welcome back! I hope the support here can help you stop drinking for good.

trachemys

Oh, yeah. Done the ID10T Error many times. Keep at it, you'll be OK.

Dee74

Welcome back

I remember a time when I would have considered being sober 4 days a miracle.
Now I'm nearing 8 years.

Sounds to me, with all due respect, like your problems are probably going to take more than 30 days off the booze to fix.

If you're gonna hope for a miracle, go all the way I reckon.

Grimes

8 years? thats just unthinkable to me.