Woke up sobbing
Woke up sobbing
Day 7 is here! I woke up and had that instant reaction of "uggggghhhhhhhh, quick quick, what did you do last night C? check the phone for time stamps on calls, messages to try and piece it back together. what little bits do you remember?" And then after a few seconds I realized that I didn't have to do that! I went to bed sober and was waking up to the one week mark of sobriety. I actually started sobbing tears of joy right there in my bed. Feeling so thankful today, I never thought I would get here despite how much I wanted it.
Last night was brutal. So funny that yesterday morning I posted a "stay positive" thread (which I still believe in!!!) and last night I was ready to throw sh*t around the house I was fighting such nasty cravings. I was *thisclose* to stopping by the bar nearby and just downing whatever. Amazing how strong the voice can be. "just get a beer, you only really like wine so with beer you won't overdo it" all kinds of stuff. But I didn't. I didn't do it. I came on here and read and posted. I was posting to try and help others but behind that was the selfish motive of helping myself too.
VICTORY! A small one albeit. But one week for me is such a huge milestone. I know that the struggle is very real and there will be many more dark days ahead. But I simply cannot wait to face them and win and have more mornings like this one.
An enormous thank you to all of you! Have a great day folks and stay sober, we can do this!
Last night was brutal. So funny that yesterday morning I posted a "stay positive" thread (which I still believe in!!!) and last night I was ready to throw sh*t around the house I was fighting such nasty cravings. I was *thisclose* to stopping by the bar nearby and just downing whatever. Amazing how strong the voice can be. "just get a beer, you only really like wine so with beer you won't overdo it" all kinds of stuff. But I didn't. I didn't do it. I came on here and read and posted. I was posting to try and help others but behind that was the selfish motive of helping myself too.
VICTORY! A small one albeit. But one week for me is such a huge milestone. I know that the struggle is very real and there will be many more dark days ahead. But I simply cannot wait to face them and win and have more mornings like this one.
An enormous thank you to all of you! Have a great day folks and stay sober, we can do this!
Member
Join Date: Jun 2014
Location: Glasgow UK
Posts: 123
Hi meraviglios, fantastic, the first week and weeks are difficult. I am 43 days sober and find I have really good days and really bad days. I also broke down in tears on my second week sober. I came onto the SR website on that morning of two weeks sober and got so much support that I went out into my garden and just cried. A mix of emotions. Keep in there it is so worth it. Believe in yourself.
Hi Mera, may I call you Mera...?
Good for you for getting through it. In the first weeks I had to tote my laptop everywhere with me. Especially when cooking and then when sitting and then when getting tired and almost falling asleep...well, I pretty much hung out here 24/7 as needed. And it worked! You are correct. This is the brutal time where staying physically and mentally occupied is a really great idea. Seriously, I had to do a lot of manual labor where I could see results and get a sense of accomplishment.
Keep doing what you are doing...this intensity will pass before you know it. Just visualize how it will feel to be free of the ball and chain! Freedom. YaY!
You are doing a great job. Such great spirit It's OK to swing from left to right emotionally. Go easy on yourself.
Good for you for getting through it. In the first weeks I had to tote my laptop everywhere with me. Especially when cooking and then when sitting and then when getting tired and almost falling asleep...well, I pretty much hung out here 24/7 as needed. And it worked! You are correct. This is the brutal time where staying physically and mentally occupied is a really great idea. Seriously, I had to do a lot of manual labor where I could see results and get a sense of accomplishment.
Keep doing what you are doing...this intensity will pass before you know it. Just visualize how it will feel to be free of the ball and chain! Freedom. YaY!
You are doing a great job. Such great spirit It's OK to swing from left to right emotionally. Go easy on yourself.
Meraviglioso, congratulations on 7 days. The mood swings and sudden cravings can be rough in early sobriety, keep at it - they don't last forever, and get less and less frequent as the weeks go by. Keep up the good work!
VICTORY! A small one albeit. But one week for me is such a huge milestone. I know that the struggle is very real and there will be many more dark days ahead. But I simply cannot wait to face them and win and have more mornings like this one.
An enormous thank you to all of you! Have a great day folks and stay sober, we can do this!
An enormous thank you to all of you! Have a great day folks and stay sober, we can do this!
Great post, mera!
Hi Mera and well done on not giving in to the AV.
It's a sneaky little bugger isn't it?
That feeling of joy and hope gets bigger and better, or at least it did for me,
as time went along in my sobriety.
I am honestly to the point now where I actually don't want to drink, have no desire for it, and can't imagine going back.
This from someone who couldn't imagine a life without drinking or a good dinner without good wine.
It's a sneaky little bugger isn't it?
That feeling of joy and hope gets bigger and better, or at least it did for me,
as time went along in my sobriety.
I am honestly to the point now where I actually don't want to drink, have no desire for it, and can't imagine going back.
This from someone who couldn't imagine a life without drinking or a good dinner without good wine.
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)