Alphabet

It's been well over 24 hours here, these poor nurses are doing their best to place me somewhere but it looks like there won't be any options until the morning. It took a lot for me to come here again yesterday - these people must be so sick of me and my constant failing. Thankfully this time, though, the nurses and doctors seem hopeful that this will be the time I get it right; I think so too. I needs to be! I lost everything, regained some, and almost just lost everything all over again. The cycle is not worth it for a momentary buzz followed by nightmare binges where I abuse myself and the ones I love. I'm ready to get to a place where I'm proud of myself for living a sober life.

Sorry I keep posting, I'm just bored out of my mind!!!!

xo guys

Dee74

I'm glad you are in a place of care and comfort Alphabet

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least

I'm glad you're getting the care you need, even if it is taking a while.

Altoids

Hey, We will keep you company. Keep on reading and posting. So glad you are getting the help you need.

Anna

We're here for you, Alphabet!

SoulSister

Thank you for the visual of what can happen when I drink.

Opivotal

Alphabet, takes guts to do what you're doing. So happy you made the decision to get help.

Keep us posted.

Wastinglife

I think I know how bored and miserable you are. I've spent the night in the ER a few times myself. I didn't even have a phone with me one time so I was left to stare at the ceiling for about 12 hours. I think that time was for Alcoholic Hepatitis. My solution after that was to switch from vodka to beer....absolutely brilliant....

I hope you have a speedy recovery!

happyandfree

Hang in there....waiting is the pits but it's good you are safe-

tornrealization

I know how you feel. I have posted here on SR while in the ER because of drinking. I'm glad you have your phone. It is good you are doing this and are in a safe place. Nothing wrong with posting a lot.

chicory

Alphabet... glad you are posting. We are here for you. Prayers for your healing, and sobriety.

Alphabet

Thanks all. That dreaded realization that's gotten me into so much trouble time and again is creeping in, so I'm glad that I'm here and not at home and tempted to pick up. This will be rough, but I NEED to stay focused on this and develop a plan with counselor a at detox so that I can get it right this time. In reading a lot of articles about sober success stories and it's been helpful, though the battle ahead is still terrifying to me right now.

Getting sporadic bouts of rest in, though, so that's good. My poor body needed it.

Hope you're all well, and thank you again for taking the time to read and respond

soberjuly

post away...

Alphabet

Coming up on 48 hours soon and am losing my mind!!!

Youngaddictionwarrior

Stay strong the first week getting it out of ur system is the worse x

VikingGF

If you post it, we'll read it! Keep doing whatever you need to do to be the person you want to be. Plenty of support for you here, Alphabet. Stay strong!

Lisa.

Alphabet

Hopefully, I'll have a place in detox within a few hours.

I really need this.

In the past two years since it's been at it's worst, I've actually forgotten how to be an adult. I barely take care of myself or my responsibilities. I never thought I'd be so dependant on others for help after being successful in my carreer, my relationships, and life as a whole. I can't keep a job, bills are unpaid, etc. this isn't me. I'm hoping the people at detox can help set me up with a counselor to get my life back on track. I want to be able to depend on myself and have others feel they can do the same.

tornrealization

We're rooting for. Use your recovery time and resources to the fullest.

PurpleKnight

Hang in there Alphabet!! SR is in your corner!!

Altoids

You can do this!!! And we are here to help!