came clean about drinking and feel very alone
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came clean about drinking and feel very alone
I've been trying to hide my last relapse from my significant other, but obviously that wasn't working out too well, and after a big meltdown this week, I promised that I'd finally pick an addiction treatment program.
He told me he is incredibly angry and that I need to find other support.
I'm trying not to freak out. I know the torture I've put him through.
But I'm feeling pretty alone and having a hard time finding the strength to maintain sobriety today. It's really hard for me to keep sober in an angry house, I guess. Trying to read a lot on this forum and stay busy.
Anyway, thanks for listening. I needed to feel like I talked to someone and the next AA meeting in my neighborhood isn't for a few hours.
He told me he is incredibly angry and that I need to find other support.
I'm trying not to freak out. I know the torture I've put him through.
But I'm feeling pretty alone and having a hard time finding the strength to maintain sobriety today. It's really hard for me to keep sober in an angry house, I guess. Trying to read a lot on this forum and stay busy.
Anyway, thanks for listening. I needed to feel like I talked to someone and the next AA meeting in my neighborhood isn't for a few hours.
Sorry to hear you're having a tough time. Pretty sure you know that drinking isn't going to help anything. Your house atmosphere will be angrier and you'll feel even worse tomorrow.
You can have a happy sober life if you want one. What are you willing to do to get it?
You can have a happy sober life if you want one. What are you willing to do to get it?
I was right where you are. I can tell you I have never felt so alone in my life. But, on the upside, I got out of that place and I have never felt that bad since then. It's understandable that your SO is upset and angry. Show him that you are changing.
Hi Phoenix. Good call on stopping here before you can get to a meeting. Pretty much every problem you list is caused by drinking, and drinking again today is a sure fire way to make them all worse. You wouldn't dump gasoline on a fire to put it out now, would you? Or throw your clothes in a lake to dry them off?
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Thanks for chiming in, everyone. I re-read these comments several times this evening when I felt like I needed support. I'm happy to say I did not drink.
Though I have to admit I'm finding all the fireworks especially noisy this year. I guess I don't really remember the last time I was sober on the 4th of July.
Though I have to admit I'm finding all the fireworks especially noisy this year. I guess I don't really remember the last time I was sober on the 4th of July.
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