came clean about drinking and feel very alone
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came clean about drinking and feel very alone
I've been trying to hide my last relapse from my significant other, but obviously that wasn't working out too well, and after a big meltdown this week, I promised that I'd finally pick an addiction treatment program.
He told me he is incredibly angry and that I need to find other support.
I'm trying not to freak out. I know the torture I've put him through.
But I'm feeling pretty alone and having a hard time finding the strength to maintain sobriety today. It's really hard for me to keep sober in an angry house, I guess. Trying to read a lot on this forum and stay busy.
Anyway, thanks for listening. I needed to feel like I talked to someone and the next AA meeting in my neighborhood isn't for a few hours.
He told me he is incredibly angry and that I need to find other support.
I'm trying not to freak out. I know the torture I've put him through.
But I'm feeling pretty alone and having a hard time finding the strength to maintain sobriety today. It's really hard for me to keep sober in an angry house, I guess. Trying to read a lot on this forum and stay busy.
Anyway, thanks for listening. I needed to feel like I talked to someone and the next AA meeting in my neighborhood isn't for a few hours.
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Sorry to hear you're having a tough time. Pretty sure you know that drinking isn't going to help anything. Your house atmosphere will be angrier and you'll feel even worse tomorrow.
You can have a happy sober life if you want one. What are you willing to do to get it?
You can have a happy sober life if you want one. What are you willing to do to get it?
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I was right where you are. I can tell you I have never felt so alone in my life. But, on the upside, I got out of that place and I have never felt that bad since then. It's understandable that your SO is upset and angry. Show him that you are changing.
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Hi Phoenix. Good call on stopping here before you can get to a meeting. Pretty much every problem you list is caused by drinking, and drinking again today is a sure fire way to make them all worse. You wouldn't dump gasoline on a fire to put it out now, would you? Or throw your clothes in a lake to dry them off?
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Thanks for chiming in, everyone. I re-read these comments several times this evening when I felt like I needed support. I'm happy to say I did not drink.
Though I have to admit I'm finding all the fireworks especially noisy this year. I guess I don't really remember the last time I was sober on the 4th of July.
Though I have to admit I'm finding all the fireworks especially noisy this year. I guess I don't really remember the last time I was sober on the 4th of July.
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