scintillady

I have every Thursday - Saturday off and usually I would be drinking during the day on my days off, leading to what I'd call my "lost days". Then of course I would feel bad because I had 3 whole days to accomplish something and I stayed in bed most of the weekend. I always blamed these lost days on the alcohol. Well, thanks to the antabuse, I have 18 days of sobriety under my belt but today I still had a lost day. Didn't really do anything at all today except that I took the dog out, ate a bagel, and got some sleep medication (herbal). I came home at noon, took some, and fell asleep until 6:30 PM. Had to work tonight overnight because I got offered the overtime, so got up, took the dog to the dog park and now I'm at work until 8:30 AM. i guess my point is that I always blamed the lost days on the alcohol, but now that I'm sober I have to find something else to blame my inertia on. Gotta get a plan and get something done. I'm glad for the 18 days, but I still feel like I'm just existing, spinning my wheels. I thought I would have so much more energy and more will to do things without the alcohol.

neferkamichael

Scintillady, 18 days under your belt is FANTASTIC, congratulations. You are possibly suffering from what I suffer from, expecting instant satisfaction from everything you do, an annoying side effect from using chemical substances, rootin for ya.

biminiblue

I find I need down time. Recovery from alcoholism is a draining thing, both physically and emotionally. The first couple months I slept a lot, ate a lot, watched a few Netflix marathons, and didn't go gung ho on anything.

I've found life has a lot of beauty when it is appreciated at a slower pace. Quiet and peace are not what I was used to, but they are very welcome right now.

I still have a bathroom that needs cleaning, if you are intent on staying busy!

Dee74

You still seemed to pack a fair amount into a 'lost day' Scintillady

I think a lot of us are all or nothing thinkers at heart - I really had to battle that - and still do.

Sometimes working like two men is not good for me and I have to remember that if I'm rested and serene I'm going to be better here, even if I may not get as much done.

Don't forget the work/rest balance...it's the only kind of moderation that works for me

D

scintillady

If I was intent on staying busy I could have moved about 25 boxes of junk from the front of the basement to the storage corral today, but have been putting it off for months now. I promised the landlord I'd do it this weekend, though, so I guess I'd better get going on it tomorrow. I also have a bathroom that needs cleaning, as usual!

Mountainmanbob

I had a lot of "lost Days" in early sobriety
never felt to bad about them
knowing that any day sober (even if nothing got done)
was better that the days I spent drinking

nothing wrong with a day off from everything
after being sober for a while -- I think we learn to enjoy ourselves and relax in these
serenity can be found often in very simple moments of time

MM

mecanix

I slept for about the first 10 weeks .
It was a useful tool to fight cravings and also i was extremely tired as my body healed .

I tried to do at least one thing positive for myself each day .

Take care , m

scintillady

Thanks for the encouragement. I hope that I can get some stuff don today. I feel justified in sleeping for awhile today since I was at work overnight and had floor mopping and cleaning to do, as well as supervising 8 mentally ill adults, although luckily most of them were sleeping This is not always the case, in fact not even usually the case. In any case, I have a "date" with my daughter tomorrow morning for breakfast and a little organizing in the basement. I do better if I have someone with me, less overwhelming.

Jupiters

amen!

Treerat66

Well done on 18 days.