cusper

Now that the weather is warmer and we are outside all of the time I have had a few cravings. They are aren't terrible. They are just thoughts and I have never seriously entertained the idea of breaking my sobriety however they are there. This will be my first sober summer. Today I decided to watch some youtube videos on what alcoholism does to a person and I snapped right out of it.
We were out for a walk today and I remembered the state I was in last time this year and it wasn't good. I was hungover everyday and hiding bottles in the basement, pacing the floor with anxiety. I guess what I mean to say is that somewhere still within me has maybe a 10% denial voice that says... "Ah, you weren't that bad"... But really I was that bad. I really was and I have to keep reminding myself there is no way I can go back there.

silentrun

Sounds like you handled that well. They drift in and they can drift out.

BruceSA

Well done, Cusper, I had very similar experiences, and now nothing beats being sober.

Keep strong and best wishes,

Bruce.

Treerat66

Well done, Cusper.
I hope I do as well.