Standing~4~My~5

Nine days under my belt and I drank. I feel the awful guilt and all the fun body aches and pains that go with it. I don't understand and I hate that I have a problem. I hate that it feels good. And on cue the counselor, where I had my evaluation last week calls bright and early this morning to inform me that my insurance approved 6 sessions of out patient treatment. Ugh! I didn't answer but need to call her back to discuss when to begin. I'm having a hard time picking up the phone. I'm very down and pissed at myself, I have a lot on the line. Sometimes the pain of all that's happened in the last four years just wears me down and I feel crushed beneath it. I'm sorry.

soberclover

Imagine how good you will feel when you will be able to get rid of all of that pain

PurpleKnight

Don't beat yourself up, it's in the past, pick yourself back up and go at it again, you can do this!!

gettingbetter64

Just start back on day 1

resolute50

Don't beat yourself up over it.
Sometimes it takes a couple of times to get it right.
The only real failure is giving up completely.

Standing~4~My~5

Thank you, I start outpatient treatment tomorrow. Giving my all to this. I appreciate the encouragement!

least

I hope IOP will be helpful to you.

Dee74

Is it the pain tho...or the fear of facing the pain Standing?

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Standing~4~My~5

Perhaps a bit of both. Not looking forward to delving in and dealing with it that's for sure,but......