Day 1
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Join Date: Apr 2014
Location: Texas
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Day 1
Today is day 1 for me. I've managed to stay sober most of the day....It's 4:45pm here and the desire to drink is really strong. I kid myself. Just one glass of wine will be fine. I know if I buy a bottle, it will be the big one and I'll drink it all. I'll be drunk in front of my kids again. My husband will be mad, because he'll take care of me once again. I know all of this, but yet I do it day after day. I'm extremely happy. I have a wonderful job, marriage and kids. I can honestly say nothing makes me drink. Why does alcohol have such a tight grip on me? Do you ever ask yourself, "why can't I just be normal?" I love the taste of alcohol. I'm sad I have to give it up forever. It's like loosing a best friend. Unfortunately, one that convinces you over and over it's great and yet, repeatedly betrays you.
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Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
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Hi itsfinallytime. Congratulations on your decision, and on Day 1. We know how rough it is to get started, but we're here to help.
I was very resentful that I had to stop - I understand how you feel. I had proven to myself many times that it was going to kill me. Every time I drank there was no telling what would happen - it was dangerous & no fun in the end. I hope you'll feel more optimistic as you get some sober time behind you. Glad you are here with us.
I was very resentful that I had to stop - I understand how you feel. I had proven to myself many times that it was going to kill me. Every time I drank there was no telling what would happen - it was dangerous & no fun in the end. I hope you'll feel more optimistic as you get some sober time behind you. Glad you are here with us.
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
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Welcome!
I didn't know what I would do if I wasn't drinking... well, now I know I can do anything I want, and do it better!
Alcohol deceived me. It had me believing that I needed it to live, and now that I'm without it, I know I don't need it and that my life is ten times better without it.
I didn't know what I would do if I wasn't drinking... well, now I know I can do anything I want, and do it better!
Alcohol deceived me. It had me believing that I needed it to live, and now that I'm without it, I know I don't need it and that my life is ten times better without it. 
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
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Hi and welcome it'sfinallytime
I think for most of us our relationship with alcohol is an abusive one.
You may be sad now, and even a little scared, but you'll look back and think 'why on earth did I hang around that jerk for so long'?
glad you found us
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I think for most of us our relationship with alcohol is an abusive one.
You may be sad now, and even a little scared, but you'll look back and think 'why on earth did I hang around that jerk for so long'?
glad you found us
D
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Join Date: Apr 2014
Location: In the Nightmare in my head
Posts: 5,329
Hey itsfinallytime be proud of yourself for making the decision to change. Go love and hug your family. I bet your husband would be happy to help you stay sober. It took me loosing my family to realize how screwed up I was.
You can do it.
You can do it.
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